i made the baklava tonight. not bad for a first try, but definitely see areas for improvement. annoyingly, the mother said she had the recipe, but that would mean needing to talk to her. no thanks.
\nit’s funny the amount of chores we are getting done, just from not having our phone, and the ensuing boredom. you don’t realize how much of your time is sucked up by that thing until you stop using it as much.
\nwe finally finished the mario block today. great adventure, but never buying from a local rando again. what a pain. it did turn out nicely, though, and we are very proud of ourselves for sticking through and finishing a long project, that involved a lot of waiting. now, if we can just focus that energy on selling idol stuff…!
\nnot much else happened tonight. i fished out our old Casio watch so we can be less reliant on the phone for the date/time and alarm. our alarm need is pretty simple anyway, just the ‘am’ alarm.
\nwell, my hand hurts from writing, so enough of this.
\nuntil next time…
\nyours truly…?
\n", "date_published": "2025-05-15T03:00:00-05:00", "url": "https://needing.space/2025/05/15/transcribed/", "tags": ["transcribed","alter: unknown","Longform"] }, { "id": "http://lovely.micro.blog/2022/07/21/transcribed/", "title": "Transcribed 2022-07-21", "content_html": "Today, we went to ride horses. Elias almost had an asthma attack. It was probably too hot to be riding horses. Maybe we can skip next week.\nIt is Friday tomorrow. I have two trainings that I don’t want to do. I hope they are easy.
\nThis weekend, we will see the kitties, and paint. It will be very fun. I can’t wait.
\nHave a good sleep!
\n", "date_published": "2022-07-21T03:00:00-05:00", "url": "https://needing.space/2022/07/21/transcribed/", "tags": ["transcribed","alter: unknown","Longform"] }, { "id": "http://lovely.micro.blog/2022/07/12/transcribed/", "title": "Transcribed 2022-07-12", "content_html": "Nothing happened today. It was a slow and boring day. We have been having plenty of these lately. I wonder if we can find something interesting to do. Maybe we can come up with a hobby or something. Horses are a good hobby but we can only do them one time a week.
\nRight now we are reading the Fuck It Diet. We just finished Intuitive Eating.\nThese books are really good. We are working on eating more normally and less diet-y. It’s easier said than done. Today we tried to not have coffee and eat breakfast instead, but we didn’t like it.
\nUm….. okay. I don’t have anything else to say tonight.
\n", "date_published": "2022-07-12T03:00:00-05:00", "url": "https://needing.space/2022/07/12/transcribed/", "tags": ["transcribed","alter: unknown","Longform"] }, { "id": "http://lovely.micro.blog/2022/07/10/transcribed/", "title": "Transcribed 2022-07-10", "content_html": "Can’t write much, power is out, 100 degree weather and a freaking storm knocked the power out. How the hell am I supposed to sleep like this??
\nUmami fest was very fun by the way. We bought 2 keychains and had a sweet potato corn dog from Krazy Dogs. It was very yummy.
\nI am going to go downstairs again, because it is too hot up here with no AC!!
\n", "date_published": "2022-07-10T03:00:00-05:00", "url": "https://needing.space/2022/07/10/transcribed/", "tags": ["transcribed","alter: unknown","Longform"] }, { "id": "http://lovely.micro.blog/2022/06/29/transcribed/", "title": "Transcribed 2022-06-29", "content_html": "made a mistake @ work today and gave myself the 300 lashes :(
\nwatching breaking bad again and having fun w/ it. wish we would have had enough time to take a bath together though! :(\ntoday was super busy @ work too.. hopefully not as busy tomorrow!
\n", "date_published": "2022-06-29T03:00:00-05:00", "url": "https://needing.space/2022/06/29/transcribed/", "tags": ["transcribed","alter: unknown","Longform"] }, { "id": "http://lovely.micro.blog/2019/10/31/transcribed/", "title": "Transcribed 2019-10-31", "content_html": "Halloween was amazing. So lucky to have such good friends. And I am playing a lot of girls game.
\n", "date_published": "2019-10-31T03:00:00-05:00", "url": "https://needing.space/2019/10/31/transcribed/", "tags": ["transcribed","alter: unknown","Longform"] }, { "id": "http://lovely.micro.blog/2017/08/30/transcribed/", "title": "Transcribed 2017-08-30", "content_html": "I’m using the hosts handwriting for anonymity.
\nMany months have passed since this has been updated, and I don’t think it matters. Life updates don’t mean anything. A dog. Weight Watchers. A hurricane. Nothing important. Things to pass the time. Nothing more or less.
\nI feel so tired and maybe stuck in some perverse cycle of remembering and forgetting. I wish I was blessed enough to just forget and not remember. The flashbacks are getting tiring in a way they never were before. There is too much and too little detail all at the same time. Sensory things with no emotions and all emotions attached at the same time - some weird paradox that is an exhausting loop. I wish I had the brother’s ability to just forget, but I guess that comes with a complimentary drinking problem, and life in a confusing blur of emotions that are even more unprocessed than ours somehow
\nThe idea of going to therapy again seems like a huge waste of time & money. There is nothing a therapist can do or say that we haven’t already heard or done ourselves a hundred thousand times. We don’t have the type of money that therapy demands anyway. Seems like a waste any way you slice it.
\nI don’t want to think about the past anymore. I wish I could kill Tim or at least know when he dies to get some kind of closure.
\nBut there’s no rest for the wicked and no happy endings to stories like that. You get older and try not to let it consume you. Which is way easier said than done. It was way easier when we could block it all out with narcotics too. But I guess we don’t get those anymore, except the ones prescribed by the good doctor.
\nI just need to… I don’t know. Not go to therapy. Throw me down a well, maybe. I don’t know why it felt like such a betrayal when he started targeting us. I guess I figured we were on a team, somehow. That is a weird thing to admit and think. I know it was his game to divide and conquer and I knew it then too, but it still effected us. Some days, I still feel like I’m on his team. I wish I didn’t. I don’t know how to stop sympathizing and empathizing with the man who destroyed me
\nNo one can fix that
\nNo one can fix me
\nSo just leave me alone
\nI don’t want your help, therapist
\n", "date_published": "2017-08-30T03:00:00-05:00", "url": "https://needing.space/2017/08/30/transcribed/", "tags": ["transcribed","alter: unknown","Longform"] } ] }