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  "title": "friends \u0026 family on needing.space",
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        "id": "http://lovely.micro.blog/2025/12/27/depression-and-isolation/",
        "title": "depression and isolation",
        "content_html": "<p>on the bright side for the people around me, when I get depressed I am super low maintenance meaning that I rly don&rsquo;t ask for much of&hellip; anything, no socialization, no extras, I&rsquo;m essentially the pet rock version of a friend. on the other hand that means I don&rsquo;t even really have the energy to take care of myself or important things in my life so that sucks.</p>\n<p>I honestly don&rsquo;t even know if people realize that I&rsquo;m socially isolating ngl. I think people are so damn used to me being the one to initiate anything social, etc that no one else bothers to do so. I mean ffs my <em>father</em> didn&rsquo;t even call on Xmas this year so like&hellip;</p>\n<p>idk I&rsquo;m just kinda tired of being the one who always has to reach out. and a lot of my friends &amp; family will make excuses if I ever try to talk to them and be like &ldquo;oh you know how I am, I&rsquo;m just introverted&rdquo; and I&rsquo;m like ok? I&rsquo;m an extrovert &amp; I learned how to leave people alone, so def introverts can learn to initiate conversations&hellip;? idk I&rsquo;m done with the excuses. its not a great look to just blame your failings on some random &ldquo;how I am&rdquo; style personality trait, that&rsquo;s a cop out so you don&rsquo;t need to examine that bad behavior &amp; step up as a friend</p>\n<p>but I&rsquo;m so depressed right now that I like&hellip; don&rsquo;t even care to fight that fight or reach out or anything. and then I end up all socially isolated bc the some of the people who are supposed to be closest to me won&rsquo;t reach out when I really am having the hardest time ever.</p>\n<p>I think I kinda just let people get used to me being the &ldquo;therapist friend&rdquo; without any expectation of reciprocation for way too long. probably I need to like, mourn some of these &ldquo;friendships&rdquo; and accept that these aren&rsquo;t the types of people that I really want or need around me and find people who will, idk, reach out when they notice i have been isolating (I mean several people in the past have said AFTER the fact that they noticed I was isolating and just didn&rsquo;t want to reach out&hellip; like bro you know I&rsquo;m depressed and suicidal, why would you not reach out?)</p>\n<p>i know I&rsquo;m not the normal bundle of fun and bright sunshine and &ldquo;you&rsquo;re the most important person in the world&rdquo; energy giver when I&rsquo;m depressed but any kind of relationship is supposed to be a two way street. I know the answer is to cut off the energy vampires but ugh&hellip;</p>\n<p>I&rsquo;m just hoping maybe I&rsquo;ll meet some new friends at my new job, or something :/</p>\n",
        "date_published": "2025-12-27T03:28:49-05:00",
        "url": "https://needing.space/2025/12/27/depression-and-isolation/",
        "tags": ["mental health","friends \u0026 family","Longform"]
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