life seems so useless right now

i think maybe its just cuz of being the emotions releaser, but i feel like i personally always get affected by our dreams the most. i am tired of the dream where we find our old stuff that we lost over the years. that shit is gone and it aint coming back. but for some reason tryin to come to terms with that is too hard.

we keep havin health issues an its mostly annoyin cuz its upsettin elias + them. actually dealin w them is what ever. i mean i guess we dont really care about ourselves anyway

work is basically hopeless at this point. we aint gettin no promotion or ever gettin new responsibilities cuz we were honest about wantin to move depts. thought we were doin the right thing wont make that mistake again.

life seems so useless right now. had a dream about jumpin off a building. it seemed so freeing….