Octavia

a lot happened
new volunteer position!!!
first day working at the hospital
chaos
depression and isolation
another job offer (mental health tech)
what do i really want
trying to figure my life out
will i ever be okay
i keep uncovering more fucking journal entries all over the internet
digitizing all of these entries
something big negative is about to happen
extrovert's hell of my own making
cutting my phone time down has been a godsend
already feels weird w/o smartphone
cosplay generic guy visiting yosemite
my first proper time at the ocean
mental health is at an all time low
why am i such a coward
will i ever feel like i am enough
i want my office to be the sanctuary
depression is super bad right now
i love weekend
kurtis was really funny except for dean
finished breaking bad
feeling super sick
gotta get my shit together
goddamn you walt
i want an ipad
i bought an ipad today
sad steve canceled his visit
i want to buy a planner
today was so dumb
fewer nightmares and way fewer mistakes
headache and migraine auras all day
managed to resist buying a planner
when plans change i get pissy
getting used to this new found energy
i can journal however i like
more trotting was kind of scary
want to keep being lazy forever
long time no write
life keeps going
got a raise at work
the end of an era
this last week was absolute chaos
it's supposed to be texas
excuse to use my stickers
mac and cheese for the work potluck
not in the spooky torture house
today was a good day
spit in the face
sick and tired of myself
Delusional Bitch
i deserve a damn medal
today sure was a day
size fucking 12
nothing like being anxious for two months
probably just take a nap
i feel disgusting
tired of being tired
i need glasses