https://needing.space/tags/tms/Recent content in Tms on needing.spaceHugoen-usSun, 14 Dec 2025 11:00:00 -0600https://needing.space/posts/still-here/Sun, 14 Dec 2025 11:00:00 -0600https://needing.space/posts/still-here/<p>yes, we are still here. it’s just that it has been way too busy and exhausted to update here unfortunately. we have been doing TMS full time for six weeks starting in september, and then we started spravato which has been life changing. it really has helped our depression so much. like, pretty much in remission at this point.</p> <p>with coming into the new year, there’s going to be quite a lot that we have to do. we are finally down to once a week on spravato, but they are changing our insurance, so we need to figure that out. there is a place that is slightly closer than the 200mi/3 hour round trip for the other place that both us and elias are going to right now. but still, it’s been exhausting have to drive to and from dallas every day for months now. it’s just… too much honestly. so, will be glad to be moving to somewhere closer, and only doing it once a week.</p>https://needing.space/posts/new-job-hopefully-for-more-than-5-min/Wed, 15 Oct 2025 12:00:00 -0500https://needing.space/posts/new-job-hopefully-for-more-than-5-min/<p>new job, hopefully for more than 5 min</p> <p>so I start a new job tomorrow. it’s just a really simple one, delivery driver for dominos. I’m going to continue doing TMS through the next few weeks as well. so, it’s going to be a LOT at first. I’m hoping that I can make it through the first few weeks without getting too burnt out. especially since it’s SO MUCH driving.</p>https://needing.space/posts/tms-is-kicking-my-ass/Tue, 30 Sep 2025 12:00:00 -0500https://needing.space/posts/tms-is-kicking-my-ass/<p>man. TMS has been rough. I know the first 2-3 weeks usually have the worst side effects and it’s normal to experience what I’m experiencing but since it’s so slow acting, the side effects are also slow to go away.</p> <p>like several weeks in.. I’m having trouble thinking straight, having memory issues, insane fatigue etc which are all apparently side effects that I wasn’t really warned about before starting. which is fine but actually the depression is worse because of all the side effects, also just becoming worse I think before it gets better because of depression, trauma being shuffled up and etc.</p>https://needing.space/posts/mostly-just-tired/Mon, 29 Sep 2025 12:00:00 -0500https://needing.space/posts/mostly-just-tired/<p>Hi all. I find myself mostly just tired lately. It’s hard to explain how fatigue inducing TMS has been for me. Really, it’s been the biggest negative side effect, which is hard to push through when there have been virtually no positive effects just yet. It’s three hours round trip every single day for six weeks (200 miles round trip), and I’ll tell you what… I would not be doing this unless I had absolutely no other alternative. Because right now, it is <em>so</em> exhausting. But what is the alternative? Not getting better?</p>https://needing.space/posts/not-forgotten-about-this/Mon, 15 Sep 2025 12:00:00 -0500https://needing.space/posts/not-forgotten-about-this/<p>hey all. I have definitely not forgotten about this blog. My life has just been considerably full of stress the past few weeks. I have some major health stuff going on. Mostly major depression which doesn’t seem like a big deal, but it’s essentially an emergency level. I am going to go through TMS and Spravato soon, which is going to put further stress on our financial situation, which already isn’t ideal. Sigh… I don’t even have the spoons to get into what all is going down with the family situation, either. I will do a proper update soon, hopefully.</p>