I feel like it’s impossible to forgive me of some of the things I’ve done in the past. I am just an awful, terrible person in general. I can’t be perfect. I have tried. There’s nothing I can do to be perfect. I know I am hard on myself, harder on myself that anyone could ever be towards me. But knowing now that I have hurt people, and that they can’t ever forgive me for the hurt I’ve caused - even if it was things that I couldn’t help at that time? That is unbearable to me. I don’t know if I’ll be around for a long while now, or if I will just disappear. I know that things would be better if I disappeared and didn’t exist.