: relationships require effort my brother is going through a divorce. back when I was dating (both men and women), I was never …
: Things Are Normalizing So, starting to get finally used to the new relay position. School also starts in a month, so I have …
: Blog Move Finally, got onto a decent blog structure. Of course, there’s still a lot left here to be desired. …
: a lot happened so a lot has happened. just… haven’t even had the energy to write about all of it. covid and then …
: elias bday celebration today was so fun! we went to round 1 in the grapevine mall. lots of claw machines (I even won them a …
: new volunteer position!!! so on Tuesday (yesterday), i had orientation at the new hospital i’m working at. i stopped by the …
: second day at job thoughts I’m starting to think the nurse thing is an age issue. the younger nurses seem to be little jerks …
: first day working at the hospital man… today was a LOT. this week they have orientation for the new hospital i’m working at. i got a …
: chaos today was so chaotic (Read More)
: depression and isolation on the bright side for the people around me, when I get depressed I am super low maintenance meaning …
: another job offer (mental health tech) so, I got another job offer. and the offer letter is signed & accepted which is nice. they do have …
: still here Recent intense treatment has significantly improved depression, but travel exhaustion remains a …
: I quit Dominos dominos I quit dominos halfway through the shift. Absolutely fuck that shit. My life is too short …
: new job, hopefully for more than 5 min new job, hopefully for more than 5 min so I start a new job tomorrow. it’s just a really simple one, …
: TMS is kicking my ass man. TMS has been rough. I know the first 2-3 weeks usually have the worst side effects and it’s …
: Mastodon integration i MAYBE finally got mastodon integration working on my blog. I spent a few hours today transferring …
: mostly just tired Hi all. I find myself mostly just tired lately. It’s hard to explain how fatigue inducing TMS has …
: not forgotten about this hey all. I have definitely not forgotten about this blog. My life has just been considerably full of …
: why are steno machines like shiny pokemon …or better yet, like trying to find a car during COVID??? I got told by five people last week that …
: what do i really want ive been asking myself this a lot lately. like I could get into stenography and I would be super …
: two interviews today Dental interview tl;dr The dentist recognized me right away which is really funny. I must have some …
: trying to figure my life out i had therapy today & we basically just talked about how I'm still overworking despite like, not …
: Transcribed 2025-07-25 yesterday I didn’t write, but there wasn’t much to write to be honest with you. i worked, then i …
: the timing of opportunities something funny is, we have looked for a job pretty aggressively for about a year now with very …
: quit my job finally after dealing with an abusive narcissist for several years, I finally quit my job. yay me :) I would …
: i keep uncovering more fucking journal entries all over the internet this journal there's no way I'm ever going to get this journal completely done if i keep uncovering …
: Transcribed 2025-07-12 I am working on digitizing all of these entries i turned on web crawling so hopefully the wayback …
: Ugh. It's been quite some time since we've updated, almost a year. But we are currently working on adding …
: Transcribed 2025-07-03 Long time no write. I dont want to shit up the other better journal with my bullshit. but. it feels …
: Transcribed 2025-06-02 I’ll just become the host, if that’s what everyone wants from me. I probably wasn’t ever different …
: Transcribed 2025-05-31 its been a while since we have updated The june brain interviews went pretty well… an offer would be …
: Transcribed 2025-05-23 went out for sushi which was good, came home & maru broke my damn paper towel holder which piss me …
: Transcribed 2025-05-20 forgot to write for a few days, oh well. had therapy today or, Anastasia did. basically just sat, …
: Transcribed 2025-05-19 Lost my red pen. Ah well. Looks like we secured an interview next week for Junebrain. It’s at their …
: Transcribed 2025-05-18 Alisia, another day. another nothing to note. you are playing expedition 32. rip robert pattinson. …
: Transcribed 2025-05-17 can i just say that pandora’s box should just stay shut for some stuff i accidentally found some …
: Transcribed 2025-05-15 i made the baklava tonight. not bad for a first try, but definitely see areas for improvement. …
: Transcribed 2025-05-14 Things of note for today: Therapy went well Got an email back from Junebrain, a place we applied …
: Transcribed 2025-05-13 my new tcl flip came in, the sim card worked out of the box, no thanks to the support person trying …
: Transcribed 2025-05-11 honestly nothin happened today and am just writin to maintain habit. went to grocery store, had a …
: Transcribed 2025-05-10 not much going on this weekend. yesterday we hung out together at walmart and had sushi in …
: Transcribed 2025-05-08 Fairly uneventful day. i am truly grateful for such days, now that i don’t have many of them …
: Transcribed 2025-05-05 yesterday was the second to last day of our trip. We went to Oatman first. What a neat little town …
: Transcribed 2025-05-03 today we had so much fun together. we drove from yosemite to bullhead city, arizona. on the way, we …
: Transcribed 2025-05-02 “Yosemite” The mood this morning was kind of weird. We knew we wouldn’t be coming back to Cortney’s …
: Transcribed 2025-04-29 (editor’s note: may be transcription errors with this, too lazy to read the whole thing.) lmao its …
: Transcribed 2025-04-25 Raven, We are on vacation right now. I bought this journal in hopes of archiving our life. Pictures …
: Transcribed 2025-02-02 Things are very stressful at work and life lately. We probably need to move out of the country. I …
: Transcribed 2024-12-17 yet another journal to abandon when I am bored anyway my mental health is at an all time low. Ok …
: i am just not feeling ok. something feels wrong i am just not feeling ok. something feels wrong... it's hard to explain. maybe i am just being too …
: Transcribed 2024-08-14 Why, in the face of change or adversity, am I such a coward? I looked up TLC today and it made me …
: Transcribed 2024-08-09 Will I ever feel like I am enough? probably not. It makes me so sad that it seems like everyone …
: Transcribed 2024-06-24 Just got back from vacation, which was super fun. I’ll try to write the details somewhere soon, so …
: Transcribed 2024-06-05 lately i been thinkin a lot about death + suicide. i wonder if it would be better if i was dead. it …
: Transcribed 2024-05-30 i think maybe its just cuz of being the emotions releaser, but i feel like i personally always get …
: Transcribed 2024-05-29 Of course I am upset about work, but i am going to do my best to not show it. it’s a waste of time …
: Transcribed 2024-05-28 I want my office to be the sanctuary. I know it can be. I just need to figure out what it needs. A …
: Transcribed 2024-05-22 Honestly, its a little disappointing to hear that Brittany is excluding us from opportunities …
: Transcribed 2024-05-21 Guess we have a new old journal… don’t know when I think Elias gave it to us. I’m nervous to even be …
: Transcribed 2024-05-20 Work is being so dumb. [large redacted/blacked out block of text, likely venting about work] Anyway, …
: ahhh sorry i haven't been around much! i'm going to try to return the comments in my inbox tomorrow if i …
: ASL class ASL i'm kind of sad that ASL 101 is done. we also finished through the first 11 lessons of …
: i'm so exhausteddd b4 i write anything i will just say i see i got some comments/DMs i gotta reply to, i'll try to get …
: worrrkrkkk work is stressinggg me out worse than normal lol. like i am very annoyed that my skip (brittany) is …
: something something therapy i didn't know deadjournal was still around. oh my god. my old journal is STILL UP THERE... i even …
: i can't remember shit i keep having this like. really annoying problem where i think i'm done w something and my brain is …
: I'm only writing this to check off the Habitica task This weekend was pretty nice. My friend Kendrick came over to help us out with yard work. Of course, …
: ughhhhh ASL class was canceled wednesday which made us really depressed. we ordered take-out though. so that …
: SO MUCH has happened so much has happened that it's probably just better to put them all in categorical order instead of …
: it's been a while hey all! it's been a little while since I updated. the last update I made was just us getting used …
: trying to get used to new house i am having a pretty hard time trying to get used to the new house. it's just a lot! i love the new …
: new house done! Sorry I haven't been very active. Turns out, purchasing a house and moving is really, really time …
: house loan closed the house loan closed...! there's a lot more to update on but i just wanted to throw this here! we …
: so much busy hey! sorry i'm behind on answering comments - life has been super hectic! i'll try to get to them …
: house loan restrictions turns out being married to someone who you haven't seen in 7 years because she refuses to cooperate …
: i literally can't hear you please just send me a text or email for the love of god i forgot to say this in the other entry, but it's probably better to just say in a new entry anyway. …
: everything is busy and i'm tired apologies for leaving some comments hanging. my life has been a complete busy mess lately lmao. I …
: my ADHD hates me. the amount of executive functioning required to close a house from A to Z is going to make my brain …
: we did it reddit heyyy guess who officially owns a home now 🥲 the seller accepted our offer without even countering …
: mmmm tw: suicide. comments fully welcome but fully not necessary if you don't know what to say. this is a …
: AAAAA WE PUT AN OFFER IN ON A HOME!!!! This is so exciting for me! this is my first home that i've …
: come on i'm kinda mad that one of the alters in my system is tumblr famous cuz i wish i was that funny. da …
: DID btw i saw someone on here talk about DID and kinda forgot that other people have DID... even though …
: food tw: disordered eating i am on adderall and have been for a long time and it's always killed my …
: lots of updates!! my birthday was so good! it was my 33rd birthday. this is the stuff that elias got me! he knows i am …
: living out of the car we have been living out of our car since wednesday afternoon because i live in the hottest part of …
: i need a break holy shit i need a break from all this house shit. i made a throwaway email and phone number (thanks …
: house hunting update! house hunting update! too tired to talk about bday today, but i can do that soon on thursday, we …
: 33rd bday tomorrow is my 33rd birthday 🎉🎂 i'm old and balding someone help
: weight talk tw: sexual abuse/trauma, weight, eating disorders venting about 600lb life i really shouldn't be …
: blahhhhh are you ever so tired that you feel nauseous? yea dat me. i got the worst sleep in the world last …
: spread for the week my birthday is on the 18th! i made a colorful journal spread~ also we got approved for a house …
: Good dinner I cooked swordfish for the first time...! It was a little tricky because I haven't bought a food …
: HOA drama So, I've been fighting with the HOA right? or at least I thought I was. they sent a threatening …
: good lord This freaking journal is ancient. If I end up adding anyone else, please don't judge me from my past …
: today was fine i guess today was fine. nothing really happened. heard that next wknd, we will need to get up early to take …
: Transcribed 2022-07-30 today was pretty good!! i slept a lot but was able to get well rested. thank god for the weekend. …
: Transcribed 2022-07-29 went to kurtis' show. it was really funny except for dean. he is such an unfunny asshole. like no …
: Transcribed 2022-07-28 Tomorrow, we will go and see kurtis live. It sucks that he took Dean with him because Dean is a …
: Transcribed 2022-07-27 today was pretty boring. we finished breaking bad which was great, but now we are bored because …
: Transcribed 2022-07-26 Can’t really write, i’m feeling super sick but i need to write something to keep up the routine …
: Transcribed 2022-07-25 I started to read the total money makeover because I realized you can rent audiobooks from the …
: Transcribed 2022-07-24 Didn’t end up going painting whoops. didn’t feel good enough even though i feel guilty for canceling …
: Transcribed 2022-07-23 Went to the cat cafe today. It was fun but thankfully none of the cats grew on me enough that I …
: Transcribed 2022-07-22 kind of too tired to write much. today was fine except for when i got dizzy + shaky + migraine from …
: Transcribed 2022-07-21 Today, we went to ride horses. Elias almost had an asthma attack. It was probably too hot to be …
: Transcribed 2022-07-20 i bought an ipad today, it should come in a week. i’m surprised apple gave me 1k worth of financing, …
: Transcribed 2022-07-19 nothing bad going on except breaking bad is getting really good. i finally near the end of season 4 …
: Transcribed 2022-07-18 We took Evil and Toni to the vet today. They behaved really well, but we got annoyed because they …
: Transcribed 2022-07-17 journaled for 30 days in a row. wow haha. pretty impressive. had a weird dream while napping. about …
: Transcribed 2022-07-16 we had such a great time at the macabre market today… really enjoyed it… then we went to the black …
: Transcribed 2022-07-15 Happy bday Toni!! :) Today I was lazy as shit. barely did anything @ work and then did nothin after …
: Transcribed 2022-07-14 i want to buy a planner but i’m trying not to spend money. ugh i try so hard to be “good” and it …
: Transcribed 2022-07-13 today was so dumb! the water thing outside broke so i tried to fix it and i got drenched! plus on …
: Transcribed 2022-07-12 Nothing happened today. It was a slow and boring day. We have been having plenty of these lately. I …
: Transcribed 2022-07-11 Boring Monday. The only interesting thing that happened is that we are watching Breaking Bad. We …
: Transcribed 2022-07-10 Can’t write much, power is out, 100 degree weather and a freaking storm knocked the power out. How …
: Transcribed 2022-07-09 i am too drunk to write much… watched the Date: 2019 angerme nakanishi kana grad concert… oota …
: Transcribed 2022-07-08 I really don’t know what to write here. There’s nothing new going on, and I have the same worries I …
: Transcribed 2022-07-07 just want the weekend to come already. its friday tomorrow at least. we plan to go to a festival …
: Transcribed 2022-07-06 ugh so annoyed at work. they need to actually correct me properly if they are going to correct me. …
: Transcribed 2022-07-05 had a hell of a day. couldn’t sleep all last night and when i did sleep it was just trauma …
: Transcribed 2022-07-04 Stupid July 4th and stupid fireworks. The only good thing about today was that we got the day off. …
: Transcribed 2022-07-03 today was pretty boring so not much to talk about here.. just took phil to church, played a little …
: Transcribed 2022-07-02 Got our septum pierced today. Really excited because it looks so good! Just had a really good day …
: Transcribed 2022-07-01 got paid so i got some fish from razzo’s. i don’t think i’ll be spending much money for the next …
: Transcribed 2022-06-30 getting paid tomorrow but already annoyed about it, because i know we will have to spend all our …
: Transcribed 2022-06-29 made a mistake @ work today and gave myself the 300 lashes :( watching breaking bad again and having …
: Transcribed 2022-06-28 horses were kind of disappointing today because we had a different wrangler and i had to ride blue. …
: Transcribed 2022-06-27 Horses tomorrow. I love being on the horse but hate starting up. I hate getting on it and also …
: Transcribed 2022-06-26 today was very sleepy. mostly just slept. what a great way to spend a sunday. unfortunately alisia …
: Transcribed 2022-06-25 Saturday… criminal minds finally finished… no clue what we are going to watch next… that was 15 …
: Transcribed 2022-06-24 lately i have been feeling restless and wanting to get more accomplished. i haven’t been able to …
: Transcribed 2022-06-23 today i am so cold. i just got out of the shower oops (ah not this one too oh then it goes) Amanda …
: Transcribed 2022-06-22 Work was productive today. but i felt tired all day and slept in later than usual. i accidentally …
: Transcribed 2022-06-21 today was good. we went horse back riding and did more trotting it was kind of scary, but i think …
: Transcribed 2022-06-20 I got a lot done today. I had enchiladas for dinner, but they made my stomach hurt. I want to watch …
: Transcribed 2022-06-19 i don’t have anything to write about tonight. i don’t want to go back into work tomorrow, i am so …
: Transcribed 2022-06-18 Today was our birthday - 32. It was very fun. We got lots of presents and they were all amazing. The …
: Transcribed 2022-06-16 i am so excited. to go to Schlitterbahn. tomorrow. i can’t wait. i’m nervous too. i don’t know how …
: Transcribed 2022-06-15 long time no write. i promised the therapist that i would journal so here it is. i don’t really ever …
: Transcribed 2021-09-02 Update: Literally the next day, Elias got a job offer. They are very good, and I hope this place …
: Transcribed 2021-09-01 It’s going to be hard, it looks like Elias may finally be getting laid off. I think it’s a blessing …
: Transcribed 2021-06-02 Yesterday I got a raise @ work! That was nice. Last week, Phil and I went up to Fort Worth so that …
: Transcribed 2021-02-25 tomorrow is the last day @ welocalize and it’s so weird?? they offered me a position on the …
: Transcribed 2021-02-23 Today we got laid off basically without any notice?? Very weird and upsetting. We knew it was a …
: Transcribed 2021-02-20 this last week was absolute chaos. between trauma dates, super busy work and the winter storm it …
: Transcribed 2021-02-13 today it is Saturday. it is supposed to snow tomorrow. the low is 8°! can you believe it? it’s …
: Transcribed hey! long time no talk. the only real big change we have is, that we got our top surgery done! yay ♡ …
: Transcribed 2020-02-13 The message written before this entry: “Tomorrow is a new day, cherish it.” That is a much needed …
: Transcribed 2020-02-04 i ain’t got no day to day shit to talk about. grandma has been on our mind lately. we can’t stop …
: Transcribed 2019-10-31 Halloween was amazing. So lucky to have such good friends. And I am playing a lot of girls game.
: Transcribed 2019-10-30 This year we are making mac+cheese for the work potluck.
: Transcribed 2019-10-26 tomorrow is tool!! so excited. worth every penny even though i know we are struggling a bit for …
: Transcribed 2019-10-24 Missed yesterday oh well. Not my fault/problem. Today was a good day. I was super lazy at work …
: Transcribed 2019-10-22 grateful we could refinance my credit cards. decided to call today and get shit done we also have …
: Transcribed 2019-10-21 Grateful to be alive. I don’t really know what to say here tonight. I haven’t really been in a good …
: Transcribed 2019-10-20 today i am grateful for toni having a backyard… i am also grateful for our new fridge… today toni …
: Transcribed 2019-10-19 today i am grateful for: Funny new skeleman (mr bones) good food our fridge we got our fridge. and …
: Transcribed 2019-10-18 today we finally got a full sized fridge. no more tiny fridge hell. true that it won’t be delivered …
: Transcribed 2019-10-17 Grateful: Got paid Can afford meds Found new doctor Job is easy Job pays living wage Today felt …
: Transcribed 2019-10-16 Today I am grateful that we have enough money to support ourselves. It was ok today. Not much …
: Transcribed 2019-10-15 grateful: working car, easy job, loving partner today i woke up. work was fine. goin to draw for …
: Transcribed 2019-10-14 Everything turned out fine. Better than fine, actually. We aren’t overeating or over spending …
: Transcribed 2019-08-03 on friday they sent us home early because apple is trying to get its shit together that day, we got …
: Transcribed 2019-07-14 we went to incredible pizza this past weekend + it was very fun. i will want to go back sometime. …
: Transcribed 2019-07-07 i am only writing in this because we are having trouble going to sleep. lots of stuff keeping me up. …
: Transcribed 2019-04-05 Bet you thought you saw the last of me? Today was our last day at vtg. Mixed feelings but I think …
: treatment honestly i'm tired of being treated like garbage consistently from literally everyone i know but …
: tired Oh my god I am so tired. This weekend was just exhausting. Toni keeps peeing everywhere and peed …
: "Describe something you've bought in the past month" My cat was kicking litter everywhere, so I had to buy him a top for his litter box. The rest of my …
: Transcribed 2018-09-10 Elias got the job he wanted. I am going to be stupidly cold to my doctor. I really rather dislike …
: Transcribed 2018-07-22 Tomorrow is Steve’s birthday. This weekend was weird RVAH was being shitty so Alex just quit. I can …
: Transcribed 2018-07-19 Spoiler alert: I didn’t keep it more updated. I’m not sure how to start after so long. We both got …
: Transcribed 2018-04-14 Long time no write. A few things have happened. We went on vacation a few weeks ago, and it was so …
: Transcribed 2018-03-28 have not written in awhile; not sure what significant happened. next week is week long vacation …
: Transcribed 2018-03-16 this week was kinda average. gettin to know lea more which is nice. seems like a nice person. gonna …
: Transcribed 2018-03-11 today we went to see game night but ended up seein black panther instead cuz game night was messed …
: Transcribed 2018-03-04 So sick & tired of myself, like, stupid bitch, do you ever stop & think about anyone but yourself? …
: Transcribed 2018-03-03 I am my alters. Why do I pretend? I have no trauma. Richard is me. Anastasia is me. They are all …
: Transcribed 2018-03-01 I wish we weren’t on rocky waters with literally everything. We have been in serious “push everyone …
: Transcribed 2018-02-25 10% raise @ my job yay! someone merged into me and scratched my car, boo down to 195/broke plateau …
: Transcribed 2018-02-23 Dear diary Hi I am pretty shitfaced how are you? I hope you’re doin pretty good too. Yr great
: Transcribed 2018-02-20 today sure was a day. tons of good news, tons of stress. found out that elias' family is moving …
: Transcribed 2018-02-19 organize. organize memory here - emotion there - separate, then forget - try to forget - hope you …
: Transcribed 2018-02-17 Size fucking 12!!! Don’t look now but I am in a size 12! And I bought underwear at a large and its a …
: Transcribed 2018-02-15 review delayed ‘til next week. raise heavily implied. feelin less anxious bout it now. don’t want to …
: Transcribed 2018-02-14 Dear Universe, can tomorrow just be over with already? Cranked my Anxiety Meds up to 1.5 as per the …
: Transcribed 2018-02-13 my back hurts. apparently we are starting this crazy strict workout plan, now that we are settled …
: Transcribed 2018-02-12 This is the week that never ends. Jesus. The review looms closer. Just Wednesday to get through, …
: Transcribed 2018-02-11 Couldn’t write yesterday; went to the museum with Phillip + Elias + Florence’s family, but Richard …
: Transcribed 2018-02-09 Our good luck strikes again. after thinking about calling in today, we got to go home at noon …
: Transcribed 2018-02-08 Guess who is not reading that previous page? This guy I accidentally took a day off today bc I was …
: Transcribed 2018-02-06 i aint knowin what to write in this fukin thing but i know we are tryna get in the habit a writin …
: Transcribed 2018-02-05 I am going to try journaling again. This may be the only entry before a 50 month hiatus, but. I …
: tired as always elias worked close yesterday and open today so naturally i got barely any sleep. but i did manage to …
: last night last night was really horrible, i just hope something like that doesn't happen again because i don't …
: nyquil fatigue & renfest took too much nyquil last night now i'm fucked up still god damn it. also renfest tomorrow yessss.
: food almost forgot to write because i was thrown off my groove so much by having to bring breakfast. …
: Dear Future Self I am currently in the process of finding another therapist. I found one yesterday that is close and …
: got my TDAP im so tired & i don't really remember what went on yesterday so i'm basically useless. all i can say …
: halloween soon! i got a halloween costume and it matches elias' costume and i'm really excited but also nervous!!! i …
: public blog? therapy went fine. going to have to deal with Sem Month, i wish that she still didn't have such an …
: elias in the ER elias went to the ER on friday so i left work early. ended up having to pay $150 out of pocket for …
: PCOS pcos was confirmed FINALLY. like i actually saw the results with my eyes, in front of me (even …
: new computer i almost forgot to write this haha... i didn't write because i was sick yesterday... feeling a …
: gallbladder attack having a gallbladder attack at work suuuuuuuuuux. also someone did my makeup this morning and it …
: dave & busters went to dave and busters last night and drank. not to excess, thankfully. starting to trust jacob a …
: sushi therapy was hard yesterday. i don't actually remember it but i think it's getting easier?? idk. had …
: worried about therapy forever worried abotu therapy tonight. worried about the COST of therapy. too expensive to be alive. don't …
: Transcribed 2017-08-30 I’m using the hosts handwriting for anonymity. Many months have passed since this has been updated, …
: how many lives? i wonder how many lives our presence has ruined? i can blame the mother. she brought kids into this …
: this weekend [karaoke bar, VTG convention, shopping with the mom] going to the karaoke bar tonight. it's kind of expensive but always fun and worth the money. i like …
: Update I am going to try to keep this thing updated. I doubt I will ever get a chance to do so, but. I …
: Transcribed 2017-04-15 i am worried about Easter – but personally.. i am worried about my libido lately – it has been much …
: Transcribed 2017-04-13 I have a confession to make: I am a self-sabotager. It’s probably not much of a confession as people …
: Transcribed 2017-04-12 Brief timeline of last months: august 2016 – Visit #1 with Elias, 3 weeks september 2016 –Kelci …
: Transcribed 2016-07-04 I don’t know if I stand for anything now. I don’t know if I ever did. I don’t know anything any …
: Transcribed 2016-06-20 Still alive. We quit our job and our birthday passed with very little fuss. We quit because people …
: Transcribed 2016-05-21 It’s so hard to keep this stupid thing updated. There was a new girl hired at work. Not sure how I …
: Transcribed 2016-05-10 It’s been months since an update and I think that is because this has been shoved in a drawer. Out …
: Transcribed 2016-02-02 Finally got a chance to catch up with Raven last night over voice chat. It was a bit shorter than …
: Transcribed 2016-02-01 If everyone could stop fucking up externally and making everything so difficult in the system, that …
: Transcribed 2016-01-31 Is it inherently co-dependent to miss a friend? Raven hasn’t been around for around 4 days now. My …
: Transcribed 2016-01-29 Therapy is going well. Need to talk to therapist about new alter. She is making life incredibly …
: Transcribed 2016-01-19 host didn’t kill us thank god. aint really much to say outside of that. shit is tiring and i’m …
: Transcribed 2016-01-14 hey yall, been awhile since i got a chance to update this thing. only really doing it now cuz i dont …
: Transcribed 2016-01-12 hey there, I haven’t gotten a chance to write in this yet. So I decided to write in it while I get …
: Transcribed 2016-01-06 honestly i feel disgusting. im tired of my life being ruined. im completely fucking done with this i …
: Transcribed 2016-01-05 The spouse got a new job. They have to wait for the drug test to be processed, so it may take a few …
: Transcribed 2016-01-04 god i am tired of being tired which probably seems like a paradox. strange that i’m back around more …
: Transcribed 2016-01-02 I am not very big on writing in journals, but Richard is, so I wanted to get him a nice one rather …
: metallica dream i'm leaving soon but i just wanted to write down my dream before i did lars ulrich (drummer from …
: escape dream i had another weird dream last night. i can't really remember a lot of it though. i remember my …
: Microblogs - January 2012 2012-01-30, 10:31 PM: fuck it, i'm deleting my plurk. anyone need my contact info? 2012-01-26, 6:56 …
: Microblogs - October 2011 2011-10-31 11:34 PM: Now to sleep after my 2 hours of free time. Being an adult sucks and no one …
: Microblogs - September 2011 2011-09-30 8:20 PM: I regret putting off buying homestuck shirts. My size is fucking out of stock on …
: Some H!P Confessions Out of all the people that have ever been in Morning Musume (not counting JunLin), Tsuji was the …
: Ever again? (I realized this journal is disturbingly without updates, so I decided to throw something on here. …
: The Full Only You PV My thoughts: The dance is a little boring/noob. The song is amazing as usual, and their outfits are …
: New H!P PVs Berryz Koubou - Ai no DanganIt's released with a resounding yawn from me. I was interested for the …
: So Cute Is this not the cutest thing you have ever seen?
: Using L inux Lately, I've been using Linux. I haven't been using the noob versions either (Ubuntu, Mint). …
: Morning Musume 10th Gen TOO FAST. I can't handle there only being someone in the group for a few months and then announcing …
: Only You Preview Released It sounds really good. It sounds like we're going back to Reina/Ai fest bad ass sounding songs... …
: I WAS RIGHT The wota are reporting that the line distribution for MM’s 46th single is as follows:Takahashi Ai : …
: Chisato was "fat" Breaking news! Chisato was "fat". Um....Well, I guess it's not really breaking news, considering she …
: How I Got Into H!P In 2002, one of my friends at the time recommended Hamasaki Ayumi. Being young and impressionable, I …
: "Only You" "Only You" is MM's next single. I don't know what style it is, but judging from the outfit, it might …
: blah The true life episode "I'm Passing As Someone I'm Not" is all sorts of transphobic. The first part …
: Momoiro Sparkling sucks I just want to rant about this piece of crap for a minute.Go ahead, listen to it. Come back when …
: I FOUND C-UTE'S SONG Remember how I was ranting in the last post? I found the song that was supposed to be C-ute's. It's …
: blah blah blah I feel like ranting because... yeah, whatever, I guess. I know everyone's under a lot of pressure, …
: Blonde Takahashi She looks so much more fabulous like this. My god. I am so jealousss. I wish she would have had this …
: Happy late birthday, Risako Happy birthday, Risako! Well, her birthday was technically yesterday, but. I never will pass up an …
: LJ App for iPod Touch So Uh. The livejournal app for iPod touch is pretty solid. I'm not sure why it has such poor reviews …
: oh wow this is super late I should check LJ more often. Still doing new years survey thingie. BECAUSE I WANT TO. JEEZ 2010 …
: haven't updated in a while i haven’t updated in awhile, and unfortunately i’m about to go to school so i can’t update now. …
: hey so I'm not dead! Actually just had a birthday a few days ago. Had a month-long stay at Amanda's, …
: embarking i haven't updated this in a year, i know. it doesn't matter though. it's a private journal and i can …
: orientation So… I had Wal-mart cashier orientation from 1-5 today. It was just the beginning, I guess I’m …
: Because kissing ass doesn't work anymore. I woke up today to this PM: "If you're receiving this message, I regret to say that you did not pass …
: stealing. I really hate how people say that if you download an album and don't buy it, you're "stealing …
: bitch, whine, and complain looking back at my previous entries, the rare few times that i *DO* update (one a month at the …
: inappropriate response i was playing an online pictionary game with a person who i thought was my friend. i've known him …
: another survey Name: [REDACTED] Straight/gay/bi? It’s complicated. I guess effectively gay, but technically …
: subjectless (which is technically a subject) survey I got from flag 1. If you could change something about me, what would it be? Um, I would …
: Microblogs - October 2009 2009-10-04 10:49 PM: What happened to "I love you"? Did I do something wrong tonight? 2009-10-03 …
: Microblogs - September 2009 2009-09-30 2:49 AM: seriously need to get out of this house and dad's "because I'm 40, I'm superior …
: semi-hiatus if my lack of updates is any sort of indication, i’m on a semi-hiatus. there’s just not a whole lot …
: Microblogs - August 2009 2009-08-31 11:03 PM: september first. how time flies~ 2009-08-31 9:52 PM: girls outside. screaming. …
: So hot. For some reason, it's so hot. I'm sweating horribly. I watched a few animes today. I've always said …
: subjectless RIP Les Paul :( He died at the age of 94... so old! "So freedom is the point? Liberty. America's …
: family reunion I went to the family reunion, and all I got was this crappy t-shirt. My hair is up because it was so …
: wtf I had a dream that there was a BTSSB shop in our mall, and I went in. There was a red JSK there and …
: Microblogs - July 2009 2009-07-30 3:48 PM: my legs. they hurt ;~; 2009-07-27 12:35 AM: self-consciousness brought on by …
: DDR I went out to eat with Steve and Jimmy todayyyy. Steve paid for it because he's a sweetie. He's so …
: AT&T Blocks /b/ AT&T has made the foolish decision to block /b/ and /r9k/ (4chan). I, for one, am not personally …
: loli_secret Today I left the lolita secret community simply because 75% of the posts are trolls. I’m tired of …
: allow me to reintroduce myself. I had a lot of people add me recently, so allow me to reintroduce myself. (I'm never good at writing …
: job prospects I’m gonna try applying for this position tomorrow. As the proud owner of fingers that type over …
: guitar hero tourney there was a guitar hero tournament that i went to. the turn out was awful. there were only three …
: Jab a good friend of mine at jphip forums passed away yesterday because of an illness that he caught at …
: fire our apartment is on fire so if im not around for awhile thats why nvm they put it out eta: dad said …
: rage Awesome conversation that was had: Steve: Most women shave their pubes! Me: Most women? Uh, no. …
: take these broken wings and shove them up your ass love when i’m woken up prematurely to people blasting “broken wings”. i especially love it because …
: some of my past Meeting Amanda Back in 2002-2003, the internet was a younger place (and I was a younger …
: lolwat I just went on a walk for like.. a half hour? to that circle place that has no houses built in it. I …
: no. just, no. Steve: Gabby said you were hitting on her. Me: What?! Steve: She said you said she looked like a …
: huge friends cut TOL ~disappeared off the face of the internet~ again, and i don't care this time lmfao. she …
: New Wallpaper! Yes! I made my own wallpaper for the first time in what seems like centuries. It's amazing, isn't it? It …
: job interview So I got a job interview at an auto parts place. Here was the job listing. I don’t know whether I …
: How to be a True Friend™ Pick up your friend at midnight when they say they need to be checked into a hospital or they'll …
: where's waldo? guess where i am!? dad gave me SUCH a hard time about it, but i'm loving being in my room.
: trapped I'm feeling trapped at the moment.. like I can't go anywhere. Before this, I always had the comfort …
: Microblogs - April 2009 2009-05-07 9:36 PM: twitter is SUPERIOR2009-05-02 7:31 PM: why was my status "not telling" …
: various shit Okay, so I haven't had a chance to make an update for a few days. ...That's a lie, I've just been …
: Browsers so i was recently just trying out the browser google chrome. oh my god, it's so fast, and it's way …
: nothing else matters Someone finally ripped all the tracks from Guitar Hero Metallica, so now I can make proper …
: until it sleeps The sad thing is, I've been at the computer every single minute of it. I've literally been sitting …
: one I guess I'll use this time to say that more tickets for Grand Rapids Metallica concert in Nov turned …
: Microblogs - March 2009 2009-03-01 3:35 AM: i'm becoming unhealthily obsessed with a certain band 2009-03-06 12:42 PM: …
: Microblogs - February 2009 2009-02-27 5:26 PM: i'm the rp god lolol2009-02-25 12:16 AM: i need AFFECTION 2009-02-24 9:12 AM: i …
: Microblogs - January 2009 2009-01-29 9:14 PM: googles it on the yahoo 2009-01-29 10:21 AM: goes to video store~ 2009-01-28 …
: Microblogs - October 2008 2008-10-26 5:42 PM: beat almost every song on expert drums so there :3 2008-10-25 9:26 AM: not …
: friends cut if you were removed, you fell into one of the following criteria: i don't know who the hell you are. …
: The entry where I ramble on about crazy conspiracy theories Every person who is a fan of H!P has their own crazy conspiracy theories. It’s impossible to be a …
: HEY GUYS I AM OUTRAGED BY THIS UNEVEN LINE DISTRIBUTION. Tsunku is being insane again. I mean, the new …
: do I win youtube? My Youtube Stats For Today: #24 - Most Discussed (Today) - Music #41 - Top Favorites (Today) - Music …
: moving to a private journal I AM MOVING TO A DIFFERENT JOURNAL. People that can have the URL and will be readded: exoticdisco, …
: few days off the internet Didn't get on the internet for a few days. I've been playing so much COD4 because Danny came over …
: dad's the bestest Okay.. so on the whole "losing weight" idea, I made a list of foods I think would be good. I …
: finally decided on a new year's resolution - Stop drinking pop - Stop eating fast food (Subway just ham and cheese is OK) - Stop eating sweets …
: THE WORST FUCKING SMELL IN THE WORLD Seriously. This is the worst smell in the world. Imagine murdering a man, smearing him in shit, …
: I BEAT GREEN GRASS & HIGH TIDES THIS MAY NOT MEAN A LOT TO YOU BUT I BEAT GREEN GRASS & HIGH TIDES! I'VE BEEN MEANING TO BEAT IT …
: My life... &apologies; I have really, really been meaning to update this thing with something useful. Really. I …
: website host BAILS note: i posted this on jphip because i needed a host.. but it's basically the whole story Well.. how …
: Call of Duty 4 -- is it worth it Is it worth it to climb all the way up to Level 55 and restart again just for a new freakin' 10x10 …
: the switch back to Firefox Yes.. I'm switching back to Firefox. Why? Because.. Opera has started to be the slowest POS ever. It …
: Ayu goes deaf in her left ear It was announced recently that Ayu went deaf completely in her left ear... So I can give her a …
: arcade dream I had a dream of an arcade.. we went in with my gramma and Steve and Amanda, though somehow other …
: Happy New Year 2008 Don’t forget to visit your old friend a few times in 2008!
: Update on teh monies PT 2 Steve let me have 35 dollars because he's the sweetest brother in the world, and I bought a Gears of …
: 2007 Survey [it was a big year.] 1. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before? Drive around with only my brother! 2. Did …
: Update on teh monies. I bought $50 worth of Microsoft Points and an Xbox 360 Chat pad, which came with the new mic I …
: sold Sold my Gamecube for $100 which I will be getting in a few days. $50 from gramma. This is what I …
: feeling dead = yay I'll never beat Green Grass & High Tides on Expert. I will never get ALL of the achievements on Rock …
: fuckfuckfuck FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCKFUCKUFKCUICKJC SLKDJFLNSGDNK lKJNSDLFKJSDKNv sLKFhjkweklnasd T______T …
: Such a long vacation. This really has been a super long vacation. It has only been a few weeks but being away from my best …
: i wonder do you still love me?
: rock band results it is the awesomest shit ever! and apparently some peoples' best buys didn't get copies in until …
: rock band today, rock band comes out. i had my alarm set for 8am but ended up getting up at 7am because the …
: wait, what Band World Tour is only offline and only 2+ players? Wow, that really puts me off of Rock Band, …
: I'm sorry, Dad. Today, I made my Dad cry. It felt horrible and was unintentional. I apologized but he said it wasn't …
: maximus blah about Maximus (9:12:51 PM) me: i still think it's dispicable that you would make a new room to …
: 10 things that make me happy! Rules: The rules are easy, just post 10 things that recently made you happy! Then tag 10 people and …
: carcassonne is addictive this game is addictive. they're offering it for free for everyone on the 15th because it's xbl's 5 …
: google encourages stalking By googling my phone number not only did I find my Dad's name, but I also found our address and a …
: a "real" entry Since I haven't had most of these lately, I'm going to write a "real" entry which isn't just filler …
: this is the reason I sub I turned on my laptop, checked my email, and found myself browsing the Hello! Online tracker, where …
: So I googled my fansub name And got some pretty interesting results. I think Sexy Snow is officially my most downloaded and …
: "Whatever Dad, I don't even care." means that. I know I'm going to sound seriously like a spoiled bitch in this post. But what do I really care. I …
: tracking down old websites of mine I think this is the oldest I can find, archived @ Oct 09, 2002. Meh.. I need to stop reliving my …
: happy halloween I won’t be doing anything for Halloween but I just wanted to wish everyone a good one! Now sleepy …
: ct2 fangirling ♥ I (and by I, I mean nyanko_nin) started playing Clock Tower 2 the other day. That is the ONLY game I …
: wtf my monitor now has ~110px dead at the bottom, stretching from left and right of my screen rendering …
: The Companion Cube ... is not salvageable. Steve came over this weekend and I played The Orange Box a lot, so we tried to …
: doing something I'm finally doing something with [songforxx.org](http://songforxx.org/) I'm gonna write about Abe's …
: I'm done with Video Games for awhile. I'm going to finish playing the games I rented and then I'm going to be done with video games for …
: I think I'm addicted to changing my layout I think I’m addicted to changing my layout. But, I’m going to keep it the same until I find a better …
: I had a scary dream It was the end of a field trip. It ended right by mom's house, and she offered to come and pick me …
: Counters.. November Releases for XBox360 Gears of War PC comes out November 6, 2007. It will cost $0 (what, …
: Yo I rented Bioshock and watched Amanda play it for like 11 hours straight, finishing it. I'm trying to …
: Documenting the lulz This man has the nerve to call *ME* a fat loser. I'm keeping this entry public so anyone who was or …
: there are lulz to be had! I always think it’s funny when people post empty threats to me. It’s only happened once or twice (I …
: Sorry Sorry I haven't been updating a lot. It's mostly because I'm always talking about things that annoy …
: I hate Risako. Yes, I said it. I hate Sugaya Risako. Why is that? She looks so SNOBBY. ALL. THE. TIME. I have yet …
: Finally Okay so FINALLY John came over and installed my 128mb graphics card. It's nice to be able to play …
: From 150kb/s to 600kb/s by Friday I upgraded from 1.5mbps DSL to 6mbps DSL. I think it's gonna make a huge difference. This will also …
: lol wait wut Last night I casually mentioned that it would be cool if I could have 600kb/s download instead of …
: "lol but leik u r so smrt." My gramma called today saying something like.. "Your counselor called, she sounded like she was …
: LOL MICROSOFT SUCKS After the update there are currently 3 unresolved issues: Voice Chat Matchmaking NAT Type Detection- …
: Important I quit high school.. a lot of reasons, mainly being because I don't feel it's necessary if I don't …
: don't wanna i don't want to go to school i really don't want to school it's scary i don't want to get lost omg …
: too lazy Too lazy to take pictures of what I got. But here's the stuff that sticks out: Gears of War t-shirt …
: SCHOOL DREAD! Hurray 8D I really am dreading school even though I get back in later than everyone else. I don't want to have …
: teh daily ritual Hopefully my daily ritual September 2007+: 8:00am through 4:00pm - School 8:00am to 9:00am - Gym …
: "What is your favorite time of day?" Prompt #5 My favorite time of the day is night. This really gets me in trouble because mostly …
: "What is the worst thing parents can do to their children?" Oh noes I missed a few days on the writing prompt *dead* Writing Prompt #4: "What is the worst thing …
: Number one example of a bipolar's "mixed state" NOTE!: Most complaining in this post is based around my own selfishness and being jealous of FRIENDS …
: "What is your favorite room in your home and why?" Writing Prompt #3: What is your favorite room in your home and why? My favorite room is the living …
: "What is something you do well?" Writing Prompt #2: What is something you do well? I'm glad this topic is a little more positive than …
: Writing Prompts I'm going to start using writing prompts again because I fail hardcore at updating if I don't. I'm …
: i need to update yars. i'm too lazy to, so i'll update in a few days. back to school on sept. 4. gah. at least it's …
: Begin killing me now.. I'm thinking about changing my XBox Live name. Again. For the last time. This is mostly because …
: Annoyances + Thankfulness Annoyance #1: Dad awakens. Tells me he has to make a doctor's appointment for me, "just to check …
: Going to Mom's on Wednesday I'm going to Mom's on Wednesday.. she said: 1) I can have her "old" computer (which in reality is …
: Oh.. Dear dad, I didn't realize leaving a practically full bag of a snack laying on the table meant that …
: Dearest body You have given me a lot to be thankful over the years. Intelligence, my height, my eyes, my lips, …
: Cheating is for.. cheaters. But what is "cheating"? Dale and I had a conversation today, well.. maybe an argument (I was fairly defensive for no …
: KANSAS AT VENETIAN I need to convince my dad to shell out the money for lawn seating!! Kansas will be playing at the …
: Proper Entry Birthday My birthday was kind of low key. I got a few very 'expensive' things. I got Clock Tower II …
: birthday hiatus Tomorrow is my birthday and to tell the truth I really don’t feel like updating this. My life is …
: On The Weekend I went over to Gramma's on Thursday because Steve was over there and I hadn't seen gramma in awhile. …
: My current favorite lineup of Morning Musume members First being Takahashi because she will always be my number one. But.. numbers 2, 3, and 4 should …
: Another school year over... And yet another school year comes to an end this Thursday. It will be the end of my laziest and …
: Stress Today was very very stressful and tiring to me. Early this morning around 2 am I left because Dale …
: This [Long] Weekend Friday: I skipped school and Danny came over. Amanda came over on Friday night.. we played Gears and …
: Skipped school I skipped the stupid activity day today, which simply means that I will have to be making up hours …
: GAM has a new album?! Wow, that shows you how much I've been paying attention to H!P. GAM came out with an album today, …
: Birthday wishlist Definitely $80 Year of Live + Vision Cam $20 1600 MP $20 USB Keyboard Maybe $60 Command & Conquer 3 …
: All night gears of war a thon is complete! I actually went from 2pm to 6am, which is 16 hours. It was all with Dale too, he was the only one …
: A lot to touch on. Venture to Amanda's new houseI went to Amanda's house yesterday (or was it the day before?) and …
: My Dad is Wise (and update on broken xbox My dad is wise. When I told him about David, he said "Love is a strong word, it isn't one that you …
: Xbox 360 Repair: The Battle Begins... I bought Guitar Hero II on Friday and started to play.. hm.. it glitched a little (went to a black …
: Layout thievery I was browsing for reference information on Wikipedia, and came upon an Aika Mitsui fansite. I was …
: Dreams Last night I had a dream that Ethan died. It was upsetting.. I’m not sure why. I haven’t talked to …
: Contacts I got contacts! Wooh, about time. I hated having to take my glasses off to read because they were so …
: my friends that you should stalk/watch on deviantart Ethan/bloodfromst0ne: If you don't look at his work I'll bite your face off! eshva: is relatively …
: hard drive fried and crashed my hard drive "fried" and crashed.... i lost openCanvas and Psp7, and they were both .. full …
: an update for the weekend OK, so here’s my weekend! Well, how it went, anyway. At the beginning of the weekend, on Saturday …
: Grr. People are really starting to piss me off. I mean my "friends". I don't want to write anything here …
: wiszlkgxz;kxzvjxcl i couldn't type because there was someone looking over my shoulder. -___- since i've proved blogging …
: What a fucker. On DC++ it takes HOURS to get a slot to download from someone. I had a slot from a really popular …
: My full day in detail First Hour - It's a friday which makes me happy. I had a dream about amanda sending me a ffx yuna …
: ok so like Dad said we might be able to get Mario 64 when we get home so all I have to do is deal with 6th hour …
: ... Why the HELL am I up at 5 AM on a Monday writing a story with Amanda?
: I want to complain... I thought it was time for a bitchy entry. So here goes. Makai refuses to stay over at my house …
: What a weird dream. I had a weird dream about sex with Bates and zombies. Care to read more? Raagh. It was a good dream …
: HA! I just proved that Amanda doesn't REALLY like j-rock/visual kei. I showed her the "jealous" video …
: Mom's Message Raah. My mom called and was like "I don't want anything to do with you or your kids", so WTF? Well, …
: nothin to do at school Well, writing from school again. Not much else to do.. just got finished with my assignment. Trying …
: Resident Evil: Apocalypse It was such a good movie.. ^^; Jill Valentine was so much like the one from the game! Going back and …
: Now they'll never be able to track me! Mwaha! Finally. A private blog. I want to thank m-p.net for hosting. I’ll get a layout set up in a …
: Whoops Well, nothing much happened today. I fixed up the journal even though some of the text is hard to …
: woo I'm prollly moving to mah crazylife 'cas christine and nIk~nIk are dere... and they let you use …
: Allison, Mikayla, and Steve "Techno would keep me up all night and day cleaning." ~Allison Yesterday evening steve's condition …
: 4 day vacation Coming to school after a 4 day vacation was amazing. Everyone was surprised to see me. "Knowledge is …
: Back! Guess who's back!? ME!
: BLAAAH, to much schoolwork! I've decided that since I have four online journals, I'd make this one kind of like a school one …
: I don't know! You guys! Don't hoard me with comments about why M left! She went to greymatter, another journal …
: my dad sucks my dads bein mean.. he said he might get aol cut off.. ._. so if I don't write for a week, you know …
: newbies Time: 12:00 pm. gah.. i'm in a rp.. its overcrouded with newbies! HELP! BEING .. OVERFLOWED!!!! …
: stupid mom Time: 10:32 pm. This isn't fair. I'm happy for the Nicest Person In The World, Yuna, but it isn't …
: KaZaA Time: 10:29 pm. Amandas sister, Shelly, came home. I don't know what to say about this. Time: 10:26 …
: overflowing Time: 7:58 pm. Its ovverfllooowing! Heeelp! Time: 5:57 pm. Watched Austin Powers: Goldmember... it …
: stuck in my head Time: 8:39 pm. hey you know off ddr konamix, that song "gimme-your-love by divas"? I have it in my …
: rpin Time: 10:25 pm. rpin wit jessica n amanda roite now Time: 9:50 pm. help.....boredism. plus my dad is …
: gyeh Time: 11:14 pm. steals now4evers word.. gyeh. Time: 11:09 pm. I need lj codes. I need a paid account …
: new layout information my new layout wont be up for awhile due to boomspeed being stupid. okay? so0 heres the info on the …
: my bros birthday steves birthday. chocolate cake. cleaning the house. so yeah.
: Transcribed 2000-10-21 Today, it Sweetest day. Steven sure isn’t sweet to me though.
: Transcribed 2000-08-01 3 WORDS: I need glasses. I’m far sighted I got leopard glasses.
: Transcribed 2000-07-31 I dislike Steven. He and John took all the (ed note: hard to read what is written here. “jokes”?) It …
: Transcribed 2000-07-30 I missed a few days and I’m sorry that I did.
: Transcribed 2000-07-29 Seince my grandmother Peggy has passed away, I took this journel & the pocket blessings that were …
: Transcribed 2000-07-25 I went to Greenfield Village 2 days ago and it was so fun! We rode the train first thing. I loved …
: Transcribed 2000-07-20 Today, I’m going to Greenfield Village with my Grandma Stasik. I think it’s going to be fun! We go …