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I guess I'll use this time to say that more tickets for Grand Rapids Metallica concert in Nov turned up on ebay, but as usual they're at scalper Fuck You In The Ass prices. And as usual, I've been far too lazy to actually go to the temp service and get a job. Supposedly Steve and Danny are moving out soon, which means less drain on our resources. They were like, "It'll cost us 175 combined to live at the Roadway Inn, and dad's gonna try to charge us 200 bucks combined!" And I was thinking (but I didn't say because hell, I want them to move): "Yeah? Does that include fucking food and gas?" They're pretty... dumb. They aren't realistic about money.
Microblogs - March 2009
2009-03-01 3:35 AM: i'm becoming unhealthily obsessed with a certain band
2009-03-06 12:42 PM: finally fucking got a job
Microblogs - February 2009
2009-02-27 5:26 PM: i'm the rp god lolol
2009-02-25 12:16 AM: i need AFFECTION
2009-02-24 9:12 AM: i hate the color brownnn. [also ugh going to temp services today]
2009-02-22 10:02 PM: i love cake;
2009-02-21 6:55 PM: some shitty nick song stuck in my head
2009-02-17 4:57 PM: sharing a link to the naichau kamo single wooo;;
2009-02-15 7:23 PM: i want out of here
2009-02-13 6:50 PM: what the shit is a "plurk" anyway.
2009-02-12 12:13 AM: family is crazy;;
2009-02-10 10:01 PM: fuck everyone, srsly
2009-02-09 4:48 AM: bedtime now
2009-02-07 9:41 PM: hungryyyy
2009-02-06 11:17 PM: splurged and spent $40, so I better get the job✩
2009-02-06 6:10 AM: going to bed now~~
2009-02-01 6:40 AM: just now getting to sleep... jeez
Microblogs - January 2009
2009-01-29 9:14 PM: googles it on the yahoo
2009-01-29 10:21 AM: goes to video store~
2009-01-28 4:54 PM: a new car~ (to me)
2009-01-26 6:27 PM: annoyed of "family"
2009-01-26 10:56 AM: new e-mail address~
2009-01-25 1:53 PM: just finished watching The Dark Knight DVD ✰
2009-01-25 10:05 AM: still cold and is going to go watch tv now.
2009-01-25 8:36 AM: cold. Warm me up ♪
2009-01-23 7:25 PM: NAKED DON'T LOOK
2009-01-21 4:05 PM: forgot this thing even existed WATTTT
Microblogs - October 2008
2008-10-26 5:42 PM: beat almost every song on expert drums so there :3
2008-10-25 9:26 AM: not replaying ff8, since save game glitched and deleted, boo!
2008-10-25 1:29 AM: replaying ff8 yay @_@
2008-10-20 10:42 PM: afraid~ hold me ;o;
2008-10-17 4:31 AM: boredom ー△ー
2008-10-16 8:25 AM: going to bed for real now (damn addictive internet~)
2008-10-16 6:41 AM: going to bed nowww
friends cut
if you were removed, you fell into one of the following criteria:
- i don't know who the hell you are.
- i don't feel comfortable having you read my entries.
- i'm not interested in your life anymore.
- we lost touch as friends.
- you never added me back.
i don't remove people for stupid reasons like "Lol nvr commenting!!!1" or "never updating!" but i do remove them if i think that we honestly can't be called friends anymore. so. if i removed you, uh, tough shit? please don't take it personally. it isn't personal!
The entry where I ramble on about crazy conspiracy theories
Every person who is a fan of H!P has their own crazy conspiracy theories. It’s impossible to be a fan without thinking that there’s something going on behind the scenes that we don’t know about. A big example of a recent one is “What happened to Goto? She just quit? She HAD to have motives. Maybe she wasn’t happy with the management. Maybe it was because of her brother. Maybe it was because she had a man.” Everyone has their own idea of why Goto quit, and theories about her coming back as well. Another big one I can think of is “Where is Aibon now and did she purposely sabotage her way out of H!P?”
But I’m not here to talk about those. I couldn’t care less to talk about those. This is the person in question for today:
Miki Fujimoto. She’s a very cunning woman, and I’d like to say I think she’s too cunning. I think she had a plan to get her solo career back this entire time.
Imagine being a young teenage girl who has a passion for singing and wants to break into the market (I know, hard to imagine, but bare with me). You’re pretty desperate. You notice that Morning Musume is having an audition very soon. So, you practice your favorite song over and over, and the day comes where you must audition. You do your best, but they don’t call you back for some time.
You’re understandably pretty depressed. Until one day, they call you back and tell you they want you to be a soloist! You’re psyched. You couldn’t ask for anything better. You give your 100% in every song, and get used to being a soloist. You put out a few singles, maybe an album, and catch on to the business very well. You’re on top of the world.
One day, Tsunku calls you and says he needs to have a meeting with you. He tells you that he thinks it would be a good idea right now for you to join Morning Musume. But… had you not been good enough to be a soloist?
You’re understandably pretty pissed off. But you know that if you don’t accept his offer, you’ll be fired. Although it’s taking a step back, you think this will only be temporary and will do better for your career in the long run. Tsunku knows best, right?
A year passes. Another year passes. 4 or 5 years have passed and it’s becoming glaringly obvious that Tsunku never meant for this to be a “temporary thing”. You start to formulate a plan. Tsunku put you in a group with your best friend and you want to join that permanently and quit Morning Musume. You wait it out, make sure that this group is going to be a permanent thing, and then, you make your move.
You call up a couple of paparazzi and make sure that everyone will see you with your boyfriend. When the news comes out in the papers, you act surprised and quickly resign. You know that H!P needs you, so this plan cannot fail.
You wait it out. Finally, Tsunku says that he wants you back in Hello!Project. He does you one better than your best-friend-duo. He offers you your solo career back! Great! Your plan has worked. Happily ever after.
Now, I would have nothing against Fujimoto doing this. The only thing that pisses me off is the exact same thing happened to Yaguchi, and we have yet to see anything but Uta Doki and a few MC performances from her. Definitely no single, definitely no album. Why the hell is Yaguchi being shafted while Fujimoto is being rewarded? Oh well. Tsunku’s mind works in mysterious (and sometimes faulty) ways. I guess there was just no demand for Yagucchan. ;__;
But I’m not here to talk about those. I couldn’t care less to talk about those. This is the person in question for today:
Miki Fujimoto. She’s a very cunning woman, and I’d like to say I think she’s too cunning. I think she had a plan to get her solo career back this entire time.
Imagine being a young teenage girl who has a passion for singing and wants to break into the market (I know, hard to imagine, but bare with me). You’re pretty desperate. You notice that Morning Musume is having an audition very soon. So, you practice your favorite song over and over, and the day comes where you must audition. You do your best, but they don’t call you back for some time.
You’re understandably pretty depressed. Until one day, they call you back and tell you they want you to be a soloist! You’re psyched. You couldn’t ask for anything better. You give your 100% in every song, and get used to being a soloist. You put out a few singles, maybe an album, and catch on to the business very well. You’re on top of the world.
One day, Tsunku calls you and says he needs to have a meeting with you. He tells you that he thinks it would be a good idea right now for you to join Morning Musume. But… had you not been good enough to be a soloist?
You’re understandably pretty pissed off. But you know that if you don’t accept his offer, you’ll be fired. Although it’s taking a step back, you think this will only be temporary and will do better for your career in the long run. Tsunku knows best, right?
A year passes. Another year passes. 4 or 5 years have passed and it’s becoming glaringly obvious that Tsunku never meant for this to be a “temporary thing”. You start to formulate a plan. Tsunku put you in a group with your best friend and you want to join that permanently and quit Morning Musume. You wait it out, make sure that this group is going to be a permanent thing, and then, you make your move.
You call up a couple of paparazzi and make sure that everyone will see you with your boyfriend. When the news comes out in the papers, you act surprised and quickly resign. You know that H!P needs you, so this plan cannot fail.
You wait it out. Finally, Tsunku says that he wants you back in Hello!Project. He does you one better than your best-friend-duo. He offers you your solo career back! Great! Your plan has worked. Happily ever after.
Now, I would have nothing against Fujimoto doing this. The only thing that pisses me off is the exact same thing happened to Yaguchi, and we have yet to see anything but Uta Doki and a few MC performances from her. Definitely no single, definitely no album. Why the hell is Yaguchi being shafted while Fujimoto is being rewarded? Oh well. Tsunku’s mind works in mysterious (and sometimes faulty) ways. I guess there was just no demand for Yagucchan. ;__;
HEY GUYS
I AM OUTRAGED BY THIS UNEVEN LINE DISTRIBUTION. Tsunku is being insane again.
I mean, the new generation isn’t even seen. WTF. They literally HIDE THEM IN THE SHADOWS. Only two or three members are shown. WTF Tsunku? WTF. I do like how it’s kind of urban and dark though. That’s really cool. This song would be perfect if everyone had even line distribution, srysly.
If anyone doesn’t know what I’m talking about or hasn’t heard it yet, I’m talking about the Morning Musume single.
You can stream it here: “Summer Night Town” (more like Summer Night Abe, amirite?)
(for legal reasons this entry is a joke/making fun of the resonant blue angst)
I mean, the new generation isn’t even seen. WTF. They literally HIDE THEM IN THE SHADOWS. Only two or three members are shown. WTF Tsunku? WTF. I do like how it’s kind of urban and dark though. That’s really cool. This song would be perfect if everyone had even line distribution, srysly.
If anyone doesn’t know what I’m talking about or hasn’t heard it yet, I’m talking about the Morning Musume single.
You can stream it here: “Summer Night Town” (more like Summer Night Abe, amirite?)
(for legal reasons this entry is a joke/making fun of the resonant blue angst)
do I win youtube?
My Youtube Stats For Today:
#24 - Most Discussed (Today) - Music
#41 - Top Favorites (Today) - Music
Anywho. My thoughts on Resonant Blue? AWESOME SONG. I keep listening to it, trying to figure out why the hell I like it so much. It’s probably because I’ve liked these kinds of music in the past so it shouldn’t be a real surprise why I like it now. Technically, it’s a really good song. The bassline is strong and the drums are passable. Most of the song is made up of the singing, but Tsunku always creates his songs to cater to the voices (which makes sense). The vocals are strong (even if they aren’t split up very evenly). Tsunku is back to putting his voice in every single line, for whatever God awful reason. This song reminds me of something they would’ve made way back then, but the leads would’ve been Abe and Fukuda. That would’ve been interesting to listen to…
Thoughts about the PV? It’s really good. The choreography is spot on, and really fun to watch. I hate how the other members literally (and quite intentionally) blend into the background, though. After all, this is “Morning Musume” not “Takahashi, Tanaka, and Kusumi ft. other girls” just like I said on Hello!Online. I did a test in Windows Media Player, increasing the brightness two times and then zooming in on each corner so you could see the other members better. I wonder if anyone would be interested in me uploading those to Youtube too? It’s a lot easier to see the members but remember this isn’t the highest quality rip in the world so it would probably look even worse after being changed to .wmv.
And for those who don’t know me, I guess I should make a short self introduction. This IS a new blog after all, and why should you care about some random person’s opinion? Hopefully this will let you in on my point of view a little more.
My IRL name is XXXXX (omg no girls on the internet!). Many people don’t know that. I’m more commonly known as “Gray”, “agrayrainbow” (subtitling/Hello!Online), “toxicrainn” (on youtube), and “Masabi” (at jphip). I’m going to be 18 in June and I live in Michigan. I’ve been listening to Morning Musume since 2003 off and on, and I’ve followed it like a religion since 2005. I may come off as cynical or downright bitchy 90% of the time, but it gets my point across. I’m always up for debate especially when it comes to Hello!Project and every comment on this blog will be read (if not replied to). The purpose of this blog is to stop cluttering comment spaces and repeating myself on several blogs/news sites and just responding to news here.
I have an RSS syndicate under “Meta” or you can just bookmark me. If you’d like to be in my blogroll, comment here. I know tons of H!P sites but I only really go to InternationalWota so that’s the only site linked for now (that is until someone asks me to link them).
Oh, and if you couldn’t tell, the site’s name is “Mitsuboshi” (mi ★ tsu ★ boshi) which comes from Kusumi Koharu’s album name.
I think that’s all for now. Haha.
#24 - Most Discussed (Today) - Music
#41 - Top Favorites (Today) - Music
Anywho. My thoughts on Resonant Blue? AWESOME SONG. I keep listening to it, trying to figure out why the hell I like it so much. It’s probably because I’ve liked these kinds of music in the past so it shouldn’t be a real surprise why I like it now. Technically, it’s a really good song. The bassline is strong and the drums are passable. Most of the song is made up of the singing, but Tsunku always creates his songs to cater to the voices (which makes sense). The vocals are strong (even if they aren’t split up very evenly). Tsunku is back to putting his voice in every single line, for whatever God awful reason. This song reminds me of something they would’ve made way back then, but the leads would’ve been Abe and Fukuda. That would’ve been interesting to listen to…
Thoughts about the PV? It’s really good. The choreography is spot on, and really fun to watch. I hate how the other members literally (and quite intentionally) blend into the background, though. After all, this is “Morning Musume” not “Takahashi, Tanaka, and Kusumi ft. other girls” just like I said on Hello!Online. I did a test in Windows Media Player, increasing the brightness two times and then zooming in on each corner so you could see the other members better. I wonder if anyone would be interested in me uploading those to Youtube too? It’s a lot easier to see the members but remember this isn’t the highest quality rip in the world so it would probably look even worse after being changed to .wmv.
And for those who don’t know me, I guess I should make a short self introduction. This IS a new blog after all, and why should you care about some random person’s opinion? Hopefully this will let you in on my point of view a little more.
My IRL name is XXXXX (omg no girls on the internet!). Many people don’t know that. I’m more commonly known as “Gray”, “agrayrainbow” (subtitling/Hello!Online), “toxicrainn” (on youtube), and “Masabi” (at jphip). I’m going to be 18 in June and I live in Michigan. I’ve been listening to Morning Musume since 2003 off and on, and I’ve followed it like a religion since 2005. I may come off as cynical or downright bitchy 90% of the time, but it gets my point across. I’m always up for debate especially when it comes to Hello!Project and every comment on this blog will be read (if not replied to). The purpose of this blog is to stop cluttering comment spaces and repeating myself on several blogs/news sites and just responding to news here.
I have an RSS syndicate under “Meta” or you can just bookmark me. If you’d like to be in my blogroll, comment here. I know tons of H!P sites but I only really go to InternationalWota so that’s the only site linked for now (that is until someone asks me to link them).
Oh, and if you couldn’t tell, the site’s name is “Mitsuboshi” (mi ★ tsu ★ boshi) which comes from Kusumi Koharu’s album name.
I think that’s all for now. Haha.
moving to a private journal
I AM MOVING TO A DIFFERENT JOURNAL.
People that can have the URL and will be readded:
exoticdisco, jupernia, raspberrysyrup, theonlydale
I will keep this journal still alive for memories and so I can read my friends lists' entries.
If you have anything to say to me about this or any other issue, feel free to comment as I will be checking it occasionally.
PS: you can thank AJ for this! That scumbag decided it was a good idea to let Amanda (someone I ranted angrily about) use his account. Said drama had NOTHING to do with him, he just thought it was proper to let someone I purposely removed read my LJ. Classy, huh?
People that can have the URL and will be readded:
exoticdisco, jupernia, raspberrysyrup, theonlydale
I will keep this journal still alive for memories and so I can read my friends lists' entries.
If you have anything to say to me about this or any other issue, feel free to comment as I will be checking it occasionally.
PS: you can thank AJ for this! That scumbag decided it was a good idea to let Amanda (someone I ranted angrily about) use his account. Said drama had NOTHING to do with him, he just thought it was proper to let someone I purposely removed read my LJ. Classy, huh?
few days off the internet
Didn't get on the internet for a few days. I've been playing so much COD4 because Danny came over with his XBox 360, I didn't even get a chance to sign on now and then. Oh well.
A lot of drama happened with Manng and Amanda. Well, not a LOT. She came on and I chat invited her.. and she lied, saying she "didn't get it" and I asked her, "why are you on the xbox?" And she answered, of course, "to talk to matt". That was like the last straw for me and I just deleted them both and I have no intention of talking to either of them again. They've been so buddy buddy and avoiding me, so I just figured "hey, might as well give them what they want". (also AJ sucks)
I finally got to level 54 on COD4 though, which is a good thing. I level grinded there tonight and am happy. I'll have level 55 to shoot for, which is the max level. All I get for level 55 is a golden Desert Eagle though, which I'm not too thrilled about.
I finally found out how to mute everyone but the people on my friends list on Xbox and it really helps. COD4 has so much of the "Halo Jackass Frat Boy Crowd" that I got sick of hearing it and I literally didn't want to play because of it. So now I can only hear my few friends.. sure, I may be missing out on a few new friends, but I'm not in the business of making new friends and I'd probably just delete them later.
Speaking of new friends, today, in a random match, I saw a person named "Berryz RISAKO". I friend requested them and they accepted.. because it's so, so rare to find anyone into H!P on the Xbox. I didn't even realize it at first.. I was bitching at the guy:
"God?! Who is this, in my fucking way. Just STANDING there. Risako... Ohhh. They must like BK, that's awesome!"
Not to mention they're from Japan (I can tell from some of the games they've played). That makes it a little difficult to talk to them. I sent them a message "berryz koubou is awesome!!" and they sent back "yes!!!!!" so I think they understood that but I don't think they understand English.
Um.. I'm going to bed now. At 10:30AM. I am not going to wake up until night tomorrow.. pathetic of me. @___@//
A lot of drama happened with Manng and Amanda. Well, not a LOT. She came on and I chat invited her.. and she lied, saying she "didn't get it" and I asked her, "why are you on the xbox?" And she answered, of course, "to talk to matt". That was like the last straw for me and I just deleted them both and I have no intention of talking to either of them again. They've been so buddy buddy and avoiding me, so I just figured "hey, might as well give them what they want". (also AJ sucks)
I finally got to level 54 on COD4 though, which is a good thing. I level grinded there tonight and am happy. I'll have level 55 to shoot for, which is the max level. All I get for level 55 is a golden Desert Eagle though, which I'm not too thrilled about.
I finally found out how to mute everyone but the people on my friends list on Xbox and it really helps. COD4 has so much of the "Halo Jackass Frat Boy Crowd" that I got sick of hearing it and I literally didn't want to play because of it. So now I can only hear my few friends.. sure, I may be missing out on a few new friends, but I'm not in the business of making new friends and I'd probably just delete them later.
Speaking of new friends, today, in a random match, I saw a person named "Berryz RISAKO". I friend requested them and they accepted.. because it's so, so rare to find anyone into H!P on the Xbox. I didn't even realize it at first.. I was bitching at the guy:
"God?! Who is this, in my fucking way. Just STANDING there. Risako... Ohhh. They must like BK, that's awesome!"
Not to mention they're from Japan (I can tell from some of the games they've played). That makes it a little difficult to talk to them. I sent them a message "berryz koubou is awesome!!" and they sent back "yes!!!!!" so I think they understood that but I don't think they understand English.
Um.. I'm going to bed now. At 10:30AM. I am not going to wake up until night tomorrow.. pathetic of me. @___@//
dad's the bestest
Okay.. so on the whole "losing weight" idea, I made a list of foods I think would be good. I researched them and they're all filling and less fatty than the foods I've been eating. Stuff like:
- fruits and nuts
- raisin bread
- whole wheat bread
- bagels + fat free cream cheese
- eggs (just because we never get them)
- wheat thins
- low fat yogurt
- water instead of pepsi
- soup (chicken noodle and tomato)
And he got all of these things.. plus a few things I forgot and went above and beyond by buying different healthy stuff. I realized I didn't really put any real "meal" foods on there but that's because I just want to constantly snack lightly the entire day so all my food has a chance to digest.
Aha~ My dad is the best @w@
Aha~ My dad is the best @w@
finally decided on a new year's resolution
- Stop drinking pop
- Stop eating fast food (Subway just ham and cheese is OK)
- Stop eating sweets
= Lose weight!
I just stepped on the scale today. It was not a pretty sight. I wouldn't dare repeat that number here, but all I know is I've got to stop eating the wrong foods. I know exercise is kinda bleh and won't happen (due to lack of motivation and lack of means) but if I cut down on the sugary shit I should lose weight.
Wish me luck @w@
- Stop eating fast food (Subway just ham and cheese is OK)
- Stop eating sweets
= Lose weight!
I just stepped on the scale today. It was not a pretty sight. I wouldn't dare repeat that number here, but all I know is I've got to stop eating the wrong foods. I know exercise is kinda bleh and won't happen (due to lack of motivation and lack of means) but if I cut down on the sugary shit I should lose weight.
Wish me luck @w@
THE WORST FUCKING SMELL IN THE WORLD
Seriously. This is the worst smell in the world.
Imagine murdering a man, smearing him in shit, pouring nasty, far outdated milk in his rotting corpse and pissing in his mouth. Then imagine dragging him around the house, all the fluids getting into every nook and cranny of the house.
Everyday at 4:30pm, I am woken up to this horrendous smell. I do my best to cover my nose with the blankets while rolling over and trying to get back to sleep (to no avail). Around 5pm, the smell has sunk even into my blanket and I am forced to breathe through my mouth as I scurry to open up all the windows.
This process takes about 10 minutes and if I dare get one little particle of that smell in my nose I literally begin to throw up in my mouth (like I did just now).
It's snowing and the porch is covered in snow but I run over to the window and press my nose up against it just to get some fucking fresh air smell. God hates me for not giving me a stuffy nose through all this. I'd rather get sick and die than continue to smell this horrible fucking smell. Correction, I'd rather put a fucking BULLET through my head than continue to smell this smell.
I have to do my best for hours on end not to breathe through my nose because it smells so sickening.
The only options are a gas mask or to move out. Dad said that he would rather move out then continue to smell this shit, so I suppose that's what we'll be doing.
Imagine murdering a man, smearing him in shit, pouring nasty, far outdated milk in his rotting corpse and pissing in his mouth. Then imagine dragging him around the house, all the fluids getting into every nook and cranny of the house.
Everyday at 4:30pm, I am woken up to this horrendous smell. I do my best to cover my nose with the blankets while rolling over and trying to get back to sleep (to no avail). Around 5pm, the smell has sunk even into my blanket and I am forced to breathe through my mouth as I scurry to open up all the windows.
This process takes about 10 minutes and if I dare get one little particle of that smell in my nose I literally begin to throw up in my mouth (like I did just now).
It's snowing and the porch is covered in snow but I run over to the window and press my nose up against it just to get some fucking fresh air smell. God hates me for not giving me a stuffy nose through all this. I'd rather get sick and die than continue to smell this horrible fucking smell. Correction, I'd rather put a fucking BULLET through my head than continue to smell this smell.
I have to do my best for hours on end not to breathe through my nose because it smells so sickening.
The only options are a gas mask or to move out. Dad said that he would rather move out then continue to smell this shit, so I suppose that's what we'll be doing.
I BEAT GREEN GRASS & HIGH TIDES
THIS MAY NOT MEAN A LOT TO YOU BUT I BEAT GREEN GRASS & HIGH TIDES!
I'VE BEEN MEANING TO BEAT IT FOREVER. But I hadn't figured out how. I was going to go to bed last night and I told my dad, "hang on I finally think I figured it out". And I did. I just was using the star power way too soon. Now I can beat it any time.. just because I know how to use the star power.
Wheewww.. that means I also hit 7000 gamerscore. I'm surprised...
I'VE BEEN MEANING TO BEAT IT FOREVER. But I hadn't figured out how. I was going to go to bed last night and I told my dad, "hang on I finally think I figured it out". And I did. I just was using the star power way too soon. Now I can beat it any time.. just because I know how to use the star power.
Wheewww.. that means I also hit 7000 gamerscore. I'm surprised...
My life...
&apologies;
I have really, really been meaning to update this thing with something useful. Really. I have really good intentions but I haven't gotten around to it. So here I am! ♥
&writing;
I want to write so much. I know, I'll probably rp with Matt dizzle sometime soon but it's really itching me... so I maybe will write some sort of fanfic about Gears something soon. I've had this creative feeling for the past few days and I don't know what it's about. Maybe it's because I haven't been creative enough lately? So if you see a story placed in this journal sometime, you can read it or don't, it doesn't matter to me. But I bet you'll be seeing one from me soon.
&gaming;
Meh.. I broke my gaming streak today because I didn't get on. Maybe I just feel less like gaming lately? Rock Band has been bleh (I need a break from it) and COD4 is impossible on Veteran and lost its addictiveness on Multiplayer. I could play Viva Pinata but I didn't really feel like it today.. and Sneak King is definitely for days that I feel like playing it.
&drama;
There was a lot of drama today which surely insured at first that I would have weekend plans, then they were torn away from me. Yeah, shitty, but oh well. I'll get over it. I just feel like I'm going to lose friends over bullshit and I don't really want to... I might not seem like it, but I really, REALLY hate drama. It stresses me out and I tend to want to eliminate stress sources (a part of a reason why I quit high school).
&topmodel;
I watched Season 9 of America's Next Top Model and I was totally blown away, shocked, and OFFENDED by who was top model. I won't spoil it because it's a fairly recent season but once again I feel when it came down to the last two, the person who really deserved it got ripped off. It wasn't so much of an injustice as Season 8 though. Natasha TOTALLY deserved every ounce of that prize and I'm glad to hear she's still out there modeling. I wanted to use her in my new layout but I couldn't find a high enough quality picture, unfortunately.
&life;
I want to see what we can do about my GED this weekend. I'm going to go take a test hopefully this weekend to see if I can take the GED without study (hopefully I can) and if it's possible I'll just jump and take the real test. Then I will need a car to drive so that I can learn, which comes down to fixing our cars with tax returns. Then, I will get a job.. then I will visit him.
&taxreturns;
For tax returns, Dad said it was possible to get a new monitor which I severely need because this one is major suckage. Also he said we're getting both our cars fixed which is great. He said he was going to sell the Grand Prix and get me a new car most likely.. and I said it would be better on insurance and easier to drive if he got a smaller Japanese one. I just feel more comfortable because I'm so fucking short if I'm driving a smaller car.
&etc;
There's PROBABLY things I'm forgetting. I'm that type of person. However, if I remember anything I'll add it in? Or just make a new entry if it's significant enough. Happy Friday everyone and remember: not everything is as it seems. Good night.
I have really, really been meaning to update this thing with something useful. Really. I have really good intentions but I haven't gotten around to it. So here I am! ♥
&writing;
I want to write so much. I know, I'll probably rp with Matt dizzle sometime soon but it's really itching me... so I maybe will write some sort of fanfic about Gears something soon. I've had this creative feeling for the past few days and I don't know what it's about. Maybe it's because I haven't been creative enough lately? So if you see a story placed in this journal sometime, you can read it or don't, it doesn't matter to me. But I bet you'll be seeing one from me soon.
&gaming;
Meh.. I broke my gaming streak today because I didn't get on. Maybe I just feel less like gaming lately? Rock Band has been bleh (I need a break from it) and COD4 is impossible on Veteran and lost its addictiveness on Multiplayer. I could play Viva Pinata but I didn't really feel like it today.. and Sneak King is definitely for days that I feel like playing it.
&drama;
There was a lot of drama today which surely insured at first that I would have weekend plans, then they were torn away from me. Yeah, shitty, but oh well. I'll get over it. I just feel like I'm going to lose friends over bullshit and I don't really want to... I might not seem like it, but I really, REALLY hate drama. It stresses me out and I tend to want to eliminate stress sources (a part of a reason why I quit high school).
&topmodel;
I watched Season 9 of America's Next Top Model and I was totally blown away, shocked, and OFFENDED by who was top model. I won't spoil it because it's a fairly recent season but once again I feel when it came down to the last two, the person who really deserved it got ripped off. It wasn't so much of an injustice as Season 8 though. Natasha TOTALLY deserved every ounce of that prize and I'm glad to hear she's still out there modeling. I wanted to use her in my new layout but I couldn't find a high enough quality picture, unfortunately.
&life;
I want to see what we can do about my GED this weekend. I'm going to go take a test hopefully this weekend to see if I can take the GED without study (hopefully I can) and if it's possible I'll just jump and take the real test. Then I will need a car to drive so that I can learn, which comes down to fixing our cars with tax returns. Then, I will get a job.. then I will visit him.
&taxreturns;
For tax returns, Dad said it was possible to get a new monitor which I severely need because this one is major suckage. Also he said we're getting both our cars fixed which is great. He said he was going to sell the Grand Prix and get me a new car most likely.. and I said it would be better on insurance and easier to drive if he got a smaller Japanese one. I just feel more comfortable because I'm so fucking short if I'm driving a smaller car.
&etc;
There's PROBABLY things I'm forgetting. I'm that type of person. However, if I remember anything I'll add it in? Or just make a new entry if it's significant enough. Happy Friday everyone and remember: not everything is as it seems. Good night.
website host BAILS
note: i posted this on jphip because i needed a host.. but it's basically the whole story
Well.. how do I begin this nightmare?
What happened first is someone told me about tehlove hosting at [tehlove.org/.](http://tehlove.org/.) Their plans were really well priced (but not free) and I begged my grandmother for $20 to get a medium sized plan. I registered [songforxx.org](http://songforxx.org) and they were up fairly quickly.
I used my domain on and off because that's how it seemed to want to work-- on and off. The host frankly sucked, the site was always down and I was beginning to wonder what I paid for. I know, I know, "you get what you pay for" but I wasn't willing to drop another $100 on a domain that I don't use THAT often.
I finally started to use it a little more... and the host said that they were shutting down. They said that our domains would remain in tact for as long as we paid for it. Great! I didn't care if they were shutting down as long as they made good with what I paid for. I was starting to make plans for the domain, I had great plans for it in 2008.
Then I get an e-mail today which says they have to "transfer the domain names" and they're getting rid of their reseller. That's right... ditching on everyone who paid, no matter if they got their full year or only 5 months (like myself). Well, if I'm getting half the product, shouldn't I have paid half the price? That $10 could've gone toward something, I don't know, a jpop single or something. I'd rather give my money to people who will actually give me the product than bailing out halfway through.
So... now they're transferring the domain name to me, which is good for another half a year and I'm stuck hostless because they couldn't manage finances or whatever.
So please... my site doesn't take up more than 50mb at any point in time and I really need a host right now (one that can tell me wtf to do to transfer the domain to a different server too). If you can spare any space on your domain and have the knowledge to help me transfer it over to your space, I would really, really appreciate it..
edit: new layout
edit2: got a new host, will be located here
Well.. how do I begin this nightmare?
What happened first is someone told me about tehlove hosting at [tehlove.org/.](http://tehlove.org/.) Their plans were really well priced (but not free) and I begged my grandmother for $20 to get a medium sized plan. I registered [songforxx.org](http://songforxx.org) and they were up fairly quickly.
I used my domain on and off because that's how it seemed to want to work-- on and off. The host frankly sucked, the site was always down and I was beginning to wonder what I paid for. I know, I know, "you get what you pay for" but I wasn't willing to drop another $100 on a domain that I don't use THAT often.
I finally started to use it a little more... and the host said that they were shutting down. They said that our domains would remain in tact for as long as we paid for it. Great! I didn't care if they were shutting down as long as they made good with what I paid for. I was starting to make plans for the domain, I had great plans for it in 2008.
Then I get an e-mail today which says they have to "transfer the domain names" and they're getting rid of their reseller. That's right... ditching on everyone who paid, no matter if they got their full year or only 5 months (like myself). Well, if I'm getting half the product, shouldn't I have paid half the price? That $10 could've gone toward something, I don't know, a jpop single or something. I'd rather give my money to people who will actually give me the product than bailing out halfway through.
So... now they're transferring the domain name to me, which is good for another half a year and I'm stuck hostless because they couldn't manage finances or whatever.
So please... my site doesn't take up more than 50mb at any point in time and I really need a host right now (one that can tell me wtf to do to transfer the domain to a different server too). If you can spare any space on your domain and have the knowledge to help me transfer it over to your space, I would really, really appreciate it..
edit: new layout
edit2: got a new host, will be located here
Call of Duty 4 -- is it worth it
Is it worth it to climb all the way up to Level 55 and restart again just for a new freakin' 10x10 icon on a TV screen (making it look even smaller)?
I'm not really sure yet. I'll have to cross that road when I come to it-- all I know is, you can restart ten times. Yep, that's right-- TEN times. That's 550 levels. Holy shit.
I'm not really sure yet. I'll have to cross that road when I come to it-- all I know is, you can restart ten times. Yep, that's right-- TEN times. That's 550 levels. Holy shit.
the switch back to Firefox
Yes.. I'm switching back to Firefox. Why? Because.. Opera has started to be the slowest POS ever. It literally takes 20 seconds to load a page which is really fucking annoying in the first place, when I have 6mpbs internet. Also.. it doesn't have all the extensions I want and doesn't load some pages correctly so, FIREFOX welcome back to my computer.
Ayu goes deaf in her left ear
It was announced recently that Ayu went deaf completely in her left ear...
So I can give her a little bit of slack for being so shitty at kouhaku. I feel really sorry for her, though. She's going to continue on and not let a little thing such as PARTIAL FREAKIN' DEAFNESS get to her SINGING career! What a wonderful woman.
Edit: This is awesome.. even my BROTHER (who doesn't follow jpop at ALL, he doesn't like it) somehow knew about this and sent me a XBL message today:
So I can give her a little bit of slack for being so shitty at kouhaku. I feel really sorry for her, though. She's going to continue on and not let a little thing such as PARTIAL FREAKIN' DEAFNESS get to her SINGING career! What a wonderful woman.
Edit: This is awesome.. even my BROTHER (who doesn't follow jpop at ALL, he doesn't like it) somehow knew about this and sent me a XBL message today:
Ayumi's deaf in her left ear! [news.xinhuanet.com/english/2...](http://news.xinhuanet.com/english/2008-01/06/content_7372367.htm)
arcade dream
I had a dream of an arcade.. we went in with my gramma and Steve and Amanda, though somehow other people came too.
There were a few different scenarios:
Skeeball: Amanda and Steve and I all played Skeeball. Mine was broken though and the ball would not fit through the plastic thing at the end and was actually SUBTRACTING points. I ended up getting like 5 tickets though.
Mortal Kombat: There was a TV hooked up and it said "Free". They were apparently running an emulator and rom and the person who worked there (who happened to be my cousin, John) said it was so his boss could see how everyone was playing. Steve tried to play and go through the menus but they were all in Italian. He changed it to English and eventually we played. I sucked as usual...
"Singstar?": It was called Singstar but it was really Karaoke Revolution + DDR. Amanda and I played, and I picked "Higher", the DDR song. I yelled at her for not doing the DDR parts (ignoring them completely) and just doing the singing.
Weird Guitar Hero Rip Off: There was a guy playing Guitar Hero Rip Off, and all the colors were in the wrong places so it was really difficult. He wanted me to try it, and I was passing all right but not very well. I exclaimed, "What is this! Lefty Flip!" but it wasn't.
During WGHRO: While I was playing GH Rip Off, Dale came behind me and hugged me and said that he loved me. It was.. a little random and weird, but I felt embarrassed cos my Gramma was there.
After all the games are done: Here's the sad part. For some reason my MOM was there, and she was like "how do you feel about me?" and I told her that I loved her and that she's my mom, and she told me that how she THINKS I feel about her is "I don't love her and don't ever want to talk to her again". Then I woke up..
It was weird.
There were a few different scenarios:
Skeeball: Amanda and Steve and I all played Skeeball. Mine was broken though and the ball would not fit through the plastic thing at the end and was actually SUBTRACTING points. I ended up getting like 5 tickets though.
Mortal Kombat: There was a TV hooked up and it said "Free". They were apparently running an emulator and rom and the person who worked there (who happened to be my cousin, John) said it was so his boss could see how everyone was playing. Steve tried to play and go through the menus but they were all in Italian. He changed it to English and eventually we played. I sucked as usual...
"Singstar?": It was called Singstar but it was really Karaoke Revolution + DDR. Amanda and I played, and I picked "Higher", the DDR song. I yelled at her for not doing the DDR parts (ignoring them completely) and just doing the singing.
Weird Guitar Hero Rip Off: There was a guy playing Guitar Hero Rip Off, and all the colors were in the wrong places so it was really difficult. He wanted me to try it, and I was passing all right but not very well. I exclaimed, "What is this! Lefty Flip!" but it wasn't.
During WGHRO: While I was playing GH Rip Off, Dale came behind me and hugged me and said that he loved me. It was.. a little random and weird, but I felt embarrassed cos my Gramma was there.
After all the games are done: Here's the sad part. For some reason my MOM was there, and she was like "how do you feel about me?" and I told her that I loved her and that she's my mom, and she told me that how she THINKS I feel about her is "I don't love her and don't ever want to talk to her again". Then I woke up..
It was weird.
Update on teh monies PT 2
Steve let me have 35 dollars because he's the sweetest brother in the world, and I bought a Gears of War guide along with a Rock Band guide. I've been playing Gears of War for more than 9 months now so it's kind of a mystery why I haven't bought one yet (and why I haven't actually beat one player by myself). It also has multiplayer maps which will do really good in helping me actually become a better player. The Rock Band one has each individual song outlined by each instrument and developer high scores.. which will help both. <3
2007 Survey [it was a big year.]
1. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before?
Drive around with only my brother!
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I didn't make any last year. I didn't think I needed to. This year, I think I may make "stop drinking pop"
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
I don't know how close they are, but all my cousins are getting pregnant. Literally every girl from my 2nd cousin's family has gotten pregnant this year.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
No. Whew.. not sure about next year though..
5. What countries did you visit?
Pff I wish I could visit other countries.
6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?
Less procrastination!! I want to be able to drive and get a job..
7. What date from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
April 4, 2007-- the day I got my very own Xbox 360!
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Quitting school. (I know it's weird, but I've been wanting to forever.)
9. What was your biggest failure?
Procrastinating 6 months away.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Nope, thankfully.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
Xbox 360 by far.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
None...?
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? worried?
A lot of my friends'. Maybe I'm just pessimistic.
14. Where did most of ALL! your money go?
Xbox 360 + stuff.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Rock Band! Man I waited MONTHS for that thing.
16. What song will always remind you of 2007?
Epic by Faith no more
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? happier, generally (though I had super pissy moments)
ii. thinner or fatter? the same amazingly.
iii. richer or poorer? depends on what you mean. If you mean physical money and possessions, I'd say the same. If you mean rich with happiness and good events, I'd say richer
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Getting out of the house...
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Procrastination
20. How will you be spending did you spend Christmas?
...this question doesn't make sense.
22. Did you fall in love in 2007?
Yes
23. How many one-night stands?
0, I'm a virgin ~_~
24. What was your favourite TV programme?
I got into Days of Our Lives for 2 seconds.
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Nope.
26. What was the best book you read?
I haven't read any. (Hey, don't get on me! I do all my learning online.)
27. What was your greatest musical (re)discovery?
Ayu, which I had abandoned really.
28. What did you want and get?
Xbox 360
29. What did you want and not get?
Ayu's new album.
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
There were a lot of good ones this year...
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I went out to eat and went shopping. I am 17. (Only one more year 'til the big one eight..)
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Be able to meet him physically.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007?
Same as every year-- do not care.
34. What kept you sane?
The people closest to me!
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Ayu, as every year.
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Gay marriage. Had one too many debates about that this year.
37. Who did you miss?
Amanda! She moved.
38. Who was the best new person you met?
Dale..
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007:
Material possessions are shit. All you really need is love.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
.. I don't even know. D:
Drive around with only my brother!
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I didn't make any last year. I didn't think I needed to. This year, I think I may make "stop drinking pop"
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
I don't know how close they are, but all my cousins are getting pregnant. Literally every girl from my 2nd cousin's family has gotten pregnant this year.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
No. Whew.. not sure about next year though..
5. What countries did you visit?
Pff I wish I could visit other countries.
6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?
Less procrastination!! I want to be able to drive and get a job..
7. What date from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
April 4, 2007-- the day I got my very own Xbox 360!
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Quitting school. (I know it's weird, but I've been wanting to forever.)
9. What was your biggest failure?
Procrastinating 6 months away.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Nope, thankfully.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
Xbox 360 by far.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
None...?
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? worried?
A lot of my friends'. Maybe I'm just pessimistic.
14. Where did most of ALL! your money go?
Xbox 360 + stuff.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Rock Band! Man I waited MONTHS for that thing.
16. What song will always remind you of 2007?
Epic by Faith no more
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? happier, generally (though I had super pissy moments)
ii. thinner or fatter? the same amazingly.
iii. richer or poorer? depends on what you mean. If you mean physical money and possessions, I'd say the same. If you mean rich with happiness and good events, I'd say richer
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Getting out of the house...
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Procrastination
20. How will you be spending did you spend Christmas?
...this question doesn't make sense.
22. Did you fall in love in 2007?
Yes
23. How many one-night stands?
0, I'm a virgin ~_~
24. What was your favourite TV programme?
I got into Days of Our Lives for 2 seconds.
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Nope.
26. What was the best book you read?
I haven't read any. (Hey, don't get on me! I do all my learning online.)
27. What was your greatest musical (re)discovery?
Ayu, which I had abandoned really.
28. What did you want and get?
Xbox 360
29. What did you want and not get?
Ayu's new album.
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
There were a lot of good ones this year...
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I went out to eat and went shopping. I am 17. (Only one more year 'til the big one eight..)
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Be able to meet him physically.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007?
Same as every year-- do not care.
34. What kept you sane?
The people closest to me!
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Ayu, as every year.
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Gay marriage. Had one too many debates about that this year.
37. Who did you miss?
Amanda! She moved.
38. Who was the best new person you met?
Dale..
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007:
Material possessions are shit. All you really need is love.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
.. I don't even know. D:
Update on teh monies.
I bought $50 worth of Microsoft Points and an Xbox 360 Chat pad, which came with the new mic I needed with a bonus of a chat pad so I don't have to keep typing out messages with the analog stick. I have about $60 left but I don't know what I'll get with it yet. I've only got Zuma (arcade game), War Pigs (Rock Band song), and a picture pack with the MSP thus far.