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sold
Sold my Gamecube for $100 which I will be getting in a few days. $50 from gramma. This is what I might buy with it:
- Awesome Headphones - $90
- A $60 game, most likely Viva Pinata OR 4000 Microsoft Points OR Year subscription Xbox Live
Man.. that's depressing. I kept telling myself, "Am I really gonna use this?" and ended up with such a small list.. lol! I wanted to keep it to stuff I use daily which is only XBox 360 and Computer.. I thought about ADDING stuff like a camera but I'm not so sure about that seeing as I don't look good in pictures and I don't get out enough to go out and take pictures of other stuff.
I might just save the $60. :< The only thing for SURE I'm going to get is the new Headphones thing.
MSP Rock Band songs
I might just save the $60. :< The only thing for SURE I'm going to get is the new Headphones thing.
MSP Rock Band songs
- David Bowie Pack 01 - 440
- Punk Pack - 440
- "Fortunate Son" - 160
- "Bang a Gong (Get It On)" - 160
- "Cherry Bomb" - 160
- "Synchronicity II" - 160
- "Can't Stand Losing You" - 160
- "3's and 7's" - 160
- "Sick, Sick, Sick" - 160
- "Sweet Leaf" - 160
- "My Iron Lung" - 160
- "Brass in Pocket" - 160
feeling dead = yay
I'll never beat Green Grass & High Tides on Expert.
I will never get ALL of the achievements on Rock Band.
I will probably never get all of the achievements on any retail game, to be frank.
Why the fuck do I suck so much? It's really depressing....
I will never get ALL of the achievements on Rock Band.
I will probably never get all of the achievements on any retail game, to be frank.
Why the fuck do I suck so much? It's really depressing....
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FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
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whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy? [in a SABOTAGE by beastie boys tone]
i need to seriously get a hobby to get my mind off of things.
not like video games, but an actual hobby.
one that i can just do by myself and go off into my own little world every day and try to cool off at.
any ideas!? it has to be free, btw… i don’t have any money, though i’m sure i could ask dad if i could buy stuff from an arts and crafts store or something.
HELP ME FRIENDS
Things I’m thinking about taking up (from most likely to least likely):
- Songwriting - Free and something to hone my creativity. HOWEVER I might not be very good at it.
- Scrapbooking - I'd need a Polaroid camera + scrapbooking stuff.
- Origami - Not too sure how good I'd be with it.
- Calligraphy - Already tried, had a bit of trouble with the ink and wasn't so good at it.
- Photography - Definitely interested, but since I'm a noob it wouldn't be like I would be doing anything special.
Will add to this when I think of more...
ps: "Dave and Jean Perry – Lascia Ch'io Pianga" -- for myself later. book here | cd details here
Such a long vacation.
This really has been a super long vacation. It has only been a few weeks but being away from my best friends and my boyfriend for a few weeks is more like torture than a vacation. I admit that part of the reason I left was because I needed a break from the daily grind but I guess absense makes the heart grow fonder and the daily grind is the daily grind because I like things like that. I'm starting to see that I don't like change very much.
However, there were a lot of fun parts of the vacation so I can't complain TOO much. When I first came, I brought Rock Band. Gramma and Zack (my 10 year old cousin) and myself all made a band together. We called ourselves the Viper Blood. Yeah, kind of dorky and stupid, but it was something that was automatically generated. Gramma played Drums on Easy. Zack was the singer on Easy. And I was the guitarist on Expert. We were a great band until I brought it downstairs because Gramma was bitching that Roger (her husband) wanted to watch TV on the weekend. Ironically, the cable broke and he couldn't watch it in the living room anyway-- making the trip up and down the stairs with the huge amount of accessories completely irrelevant and unnecessary. Tami and Pat came over and played (well Tami played, Pat woke me up from a dead sleep to have me set it up JUST so he could watch it). Then, the last thing that has to do with Rock Band: Steve came over this weekend and played. We were going to do Endless mode but we got 10 songs in and he started to fall asleep while playing the Bass so I just told him to forget about it and we'll do it some other time (sometime at my house, so he can get the achievements too!).
We went to the mall two times to go to the new arcade there called Slackers. It's really awesome. It has DDR: Extreme but I only played that a few times (there was a guy there that was really good the second time!). Because I was having er girl problems the second time, I couldn't really play too aggressively. And I got tired easily. Zack and I played Skeeball a lot the first time, and the second time with Steve, we played TONS of Deal or No Deal. The first time, with Zack, we only got 400 tickets all together but the second time, with Steve, we got 1003 tickets! We each got 333 tickets, and I feel like I got robbed because I got a big rubber ball but it broke a few minutes after I started playing with it. Oh well, it was funner playing the game than it was to actually get the toy. The highest Steve and I got was 250 tickets from Deal or No Deal. It was between 3 tickets and 400 tickets. We had the 400 in our case! I had the feeling that we did, but we didn't want to risk it... It was still really fun. Gramma thought about buying a TV while we were in the mall, but said that I "talked her out of it" because I told her not to go more into debt just for a big screen TV. I didn't mean to talk her out of it though-- I wanted to see her have a big screen TV! Oh well.
Steve bought the game Scene It! for $40 (poor guy, that's tons of money). We all played it together-- it was really, really fun. I was horrible at it because I don't know many movies. Steve was the best. We played teams the second time we played it, and Steve was on my team so naturally we won! Woo! I only knew a few questions but I really did know the questions that I knew.
We didn't have a whole lot of money so we couldn't go many places. I had a roast beef sandwich over 9000 times, but that's just because I like those. I got into Days of Our Lives, so I'm going to have to see if I can catch that on TV here or if it's only a Direct TV thing. I didn't get into Passions thankfully, because I know for a fact that's a Direct TV only thing.
The entire vacation wasn't all peaches and creams though. Roger (Gramma's husband) was being a serious pain in the ass! As in.. rude. He asked Steve and I, "When's the last time you've seen your gramma and grampa's grave? In the last four years?" and we said "never". How the hell are we supposed to get there? We don't even know where they're buried. I'm not a believer in visiting someone elses' grave. Since I believe that when a person dies, their soul is gone and they just rot in the ground, I don't see why I have to visit their grave. If they were good people, then their legacy will outlive them. And since they were family, they always have a place in my heart. But he didn't need to act pissy and like he's better than us because he visits his family's grave. I was really offended by that and Gramma tried to pretend like it was just because he was working long hours. Bullshit. He's a rude guy.
Zack was good most of the time we were there but he was rude some of the time. He was cussing and swearing and acting up when he heard Steve was coming over. He knew that I would give more attention to Steve than him because I don't get to see Steve often and he's easily tied for #1 place for my family in my heart (tied along with my dad). So of course I'm going to give him attention! He acted really rude to me most of the time when Steve was there but before that he was okay. That's part of the reason I was leaving-- he started acting rude and basically the only reason I was staying was so that he could have company. I was going to stay until the 16th but I was really hurting from missing Dale and my friends. 15th is going to be his birthday party, so I'll probably pop in for that but I'm not staying the weekend or anything. I might stay a few hours at most.
Another bad thing that happened was that Mom called. Gramma made me talk to her and she "just found out" that I quit school (though she didn't-- she was leaving bad messages on my answering machine before that, and later she admitted that she knew and it "just now hit her", yeah right). A lot of drama was caused because of that and I was going to go home however I decided to stay. Mom said that she was going to "come get me and make me realize I was wasting my life". What, like she did? She's a hypocrite.
That's basically all that happened... I think. All the important stuff, unless you count my gramma crapping her pants to be important! (It was funny but.. sick.)
Steve will probably come over at Christmas break. Looking forward to that! He's been really generous lately and I'm surprised. In a happy way. I'm not really looking forward to Christmas itself because it means nothing to me-- not like I'm getting presents or anything, and since I'm athiest it has no religious meaning. Haha.
TL;DR: Vacation was overall good, but I missed everyone!
PS: There was some really embarrassing mix up where I thought Amanda's online BFF Eric was a guy I used to know and be fairly close to, Luke. It ended up in a 3 hour conversation with him about Amanda and other stuff. Weird...
However, there were a lot of fun parts of the vacation so I can't complain TOO much. When I first came, I brought Rock Band. Gramma and Zack (my 10 year old cousin) and myself all made a band together. We called ourselves the Viper Blood. Yeah, kind of dorky and stupid, but it was something that was automatically generated. Gramma played Drums on Easy. Zack was the singer on Easy. And I was the guitarist on Expert. We were a great band until I brought it downstairs because Gramma was bitching that Roger (her husband) wanted to watch TV on the weekend. Ironically, the cable broke and he couldn't watch it in the living room anyway-- making the trip up and down the stairs with the huge amount of accessories completely irrelevant and unnecessary. Tami and Pat came over and played (well Tami played, Pat woke me up from a dead sleep to have me set it up JUST so he could watch it). Then, the last thing that has to do with Rock Band: Steve came over this weekend and played. We were going to do Endless mode but we got 10 songs in and he started to fall asleep while playing the Bass so I just told him to forget about it and we'll do it some other time (sometime at my house, so he can get the achievements too!).
We went to the mall two times to go to the new arcade there called Slackers. It's really awesome. It has DDR: Extreme but I only played that a few times (there was a guy there that was really good the second time!). Because I was having er girl problems the second time, I couldn't really play too aggressively. And I got tired easily. Zack and I played Skeeball a lot the first time, and the second time with Steve, we played TONS of Deal or No Deal. The first time, with Zack, we only got 400 tickets all together but the second time, with Steve, we got 1003 tickets! We each got 333 tickets, and I feel like I got robbed because I got a big rubber ball but it broke a few minutes after I started playing with it. Oh well, it was funner playing the game than it was to actually get the toy. The highest Steve and I got was 250 tickets from Deal or No Deal. It was between 3 tickets and 400 tickets. We had the 400 in our case! I had the feeling that we did, but we didn't want to risk it... It was still really fun. Gramma thought about buying a TV while we were in the mall, but said that I "talked her out of it" because I told her not to go more into debt just for a big screen TV. I didn't mean to talk her out of it though-- I wanted to see her have a big screen TV! Oh well.
Steve bought the game Scene It! for $40 (poor guy, that's tons of money). We all played it together-- it was really, really fun. I was horrible at it because I don't know many movies. Steve was the best. We played teams the second time we played it, and Steve was on my team so naturally we won! Woo! I only knew a few questions but I really did know the questions that I knew.
We didn't have a whole lot of money so we couldn't go many places. I had a roast beef sandwich over 9000 times, but that's just because I like those. I got into Days of Our Lives, so I'm going to have to see if I can catch that on TV here or if it's only a Direct TV thing. I didn't get into Passions thankfully, because I know for a fact that's a Direct TV only thing.
The entire vacation wasn't all peaches and creams though. Roger (Gramma's husband) was being a serious pain in the ass! As in.. rude. He asked Steve and I, "When's the last time you've seen your gramma and grampa's grave? In the last four years?" and we said "never". How the hell are we supposed to get there? We don't even know where they're buried. I'm not a believer in visiting someone elses' grave. Since I believe that when a person dies, their soul is gone and they just rot in the ground, I don't see why I have to visit their grave. If they were good people, then their legacy will outlive them. And since they were family, they always have a place in my heart. But he didn't need to act pissy and like he's better than us because he visits his family's grave. I was really offended by that and Gramma tried to pretend like it was just because he was working long hours. Bullshit. He's a rude guy.
Zack was good most of the time we were there but he was rude some of the time. He was cussing and swearing and acting up when he heard Steve was coming over. He knew that I would give more attention to Steve than him because I don't get to see Steve often and he's easily tied for #1 place for my family in my heart (tied along with my dad). So of course I'm going to give him attention! He acted really rude to me most of the time when Steve was there but before that he was okay. That's part of the reason I was leaving-- he started acting rude and basically the only reason I was staying was so that he could have company. I was going to stay until the 16th but I was really hurting from missing Dale and my friends. 15th is going to be his birthday party, so I'll probably pop in for that but I'm not staying the weekend or anything. I might stay a few hours at most.
Another bad thing that happened was that Mom called. Gramma made me talk to her and she "just found out" that I quit school (though she didn't-- she was leaving bad messages on my answering machine before that, and later she admitted that she knew and it "just now hit her", yeah right). A lot of drama was caused because of that and I was going to go home however I decided to stay. Mom said that she was going to "come get me and make me realize I was wasting my life". What, like she did? She's a hypocrite.
That's basically all that happened... I think. All the important stuff, unless you count my gramma crapping her pants to be important! (It was funny but.. sick.)
Steve will probably come over at Christmas break. Looking forward to that! He's been really generous lately and I'm surprised. In a happy way. I'm not really looking forward to Christmas itself because it means nothing to me-- not like I'm getting presents or anything, and since I'm athiest it has no religious meaning. Haha.
TL;DR: Vacation was overall good, but I missed everyone!
PS: There was some really embarrassing mix up where I thought Amanda's online BFF Eric was a guy I used to know and be fairly close to, Luke. It ended up in a 3 hour conversation with him about Amanda and other stuff. Weird...
rock band results
it is the awesomest shit ever! and apparently some peoples' best buys didn't get copies in until tomorrow, i would've been so pissed!
i'm trying to beat the solo career on expert right now. i have the highest leaderboard for the song "dani california" and have 100% hit on expert on that, which means it's like the maximum score.
i'm also #2 on the vocal career overall leaderboards.
i know that's going to change as soon as more people get the game but whatever lol.
i'm trying to beat the solo career on expert right now. i have the highest leaderboard for the song "dani california" and have 100% hit on expert on that, which means it's like the maximum score.
i'm also #2 on the vocal career overall leaderboards.
i know that's going to change as soon as more people get the game but whatever lol.
rock band
today, rock band comes out.
i had my alarm set for 8am but ended up getting up at 7am because the anticipation was making me wake up every few hours.
best buy opens at 10am here, so dad is gonna get up at 9am and we have to get started then because the thunderbird only goes 30mph max. we have to take a back road XD
I AM SO EXCITED!
gonna go try to pass time by watching america's next top model season 8...
i had my alarm set for 8am but ended up getting up at 7am because the anticipation was making me wake up every few hours.
best buy opens at 10am here, so dad is gonna get up at 9am and we have to get started then because the thunderbird only goes 30mph max. we have to take a back road XD
I AM SO EXCITED!
gonna go try to pass time by watching america's next top model season 8...
wait, what
Band World Tour is only offline and only 2+ players?
Wow, that really puts me off of Rock Band, because that was the thing I was looking forward to the most, and now I hear I can't even play it unless two people are playing *unless I want to sing while I play, which would cause me to need a mic stand.. and to know the songs of course*
I'm sure it won't be a problem at first, but it's going to be annoying after I beat all the songs on Expert in 1p mode.. well hopefully by then either they'll have patched it with online Band World Tour or I know all the songs singing by heart and can sing and do the drums at the same time or something. Gah.
Wow, that really puts me off of Rock Band, because that was the thing I was looking forward to the most, and now I hear I can't even play it unless two people are playing *unless I want to sing while I play, which would cause me to need a mic stand.. and to know the songs of course*
I'm sure it won't be a problem at first, but it's going to be annoying after I beat all the songs on Expert in 1p mode.. well hopefully by then either they'll have patched it with online Band World Tour or I know all the songs singing by heart and can sing and do the drums at the same time or something. Gah.
I'm sorry, Dad.
Today, I made my Dad cry.
It felt horrible and was unintentional. I apologized but he said it wasn't my fault.
It was because I said I have no female role models, which is the truth.
I was really upset at my gramma and started crying because she was talking behind my back. Dad started the whole "it's just your gramma, that's just the way she is" spiel before he realized it was because I wanted a female role model and she was the last one left, and turns out she's a backtalking traitor too.
He started crying because he said that I can always go to his family but he realized I wasn't close enough to any of them to go to them. He thinks that he's the one that caused this, and it's not true. And it makes me cry just thinking about him blame himself. It is not his fault at all.
I wouldn't mind going to those family members if I knew them better, but I always didn't want to go. I have a hard time making new friends and to me, my family is new friends because I haven't been around them for a long time. To me, they are random people who I can't really trust, besides my gramma who talks about me behind my back.
Also, for the first time in my life, I mentioned to him "someone that I like online and have been talking to for 7 or 8 months". So now he knows, and I figure that has something to do with it too. I think he's not stupid and since I also mentioned "makeup and boys" as a couple of things I want to talk to a female role model about, and mentioned the whole "Go out with Danny" ordeal, I really do think he understands because he can put two and two together.
Another thing I think he's upset about is the way that she treats me is the same way she treated mom. He even said to me, "Yeah, she used to be that way about me and your mom. Whenever your mom would be mad at me, she'd go to her and your gramma would start naming off new people to go to."
God. . . I feel horrible for making him feel that way. But at least, now, everything is out in the open. I will be able to sleep well for the first night in a very long time.
It felt horrible and was unintentional. I apologized but he said it wasn't my fault.
It was because I said I have no female role models, which is the truth.
I was really upset at my gramma and started crying because she was talking behind my back. Dad started the whole "it's just your gramma, that's just the way she is" spiel before he realized it was because I wanted a female role model and she was the last one left, and turns out she's a backtalking traitor too.
He started crying because he said that I can always go to his family but he realized I wasn't close enough to any of them to go to them. He thinks that he's the one that caused this, and it's not true. And it makes me cry just thinking about him blame himself. It is not his fault at all.
I wouldn't mind going to those family members if I knew them better, but I always didn't want to go. I have a hard time making new friends and to me, my family is new friends because I haven't been around them for a long time. To me, they are random people who I can't really trust, besides my gramma who talks about me behind my back.
Also, for the first time in my life, I mentioned to him "someone that I like online and have been talking to for 7 or 8 months". So now he knows, and I figure that has something to do with it too. I think he's not stupid and since I also mentioned "makeup and boys" as a couple of things I want to talk to a female role model about, and mentioned the whole "Go out with Danny" ordeal, I really do think he understands because he can put two and two together.
Another thing I think he's upset about is the way that she treats me is the same way she treated mom. He even said to me, "Yeah, she used to be that way about me and your mom. Whenever your mom would be mad at me, she'd go to her and your gramma would start naming off new people to go to."
God. . . I feel horrible for making him feel that way. But at least, now, everything is out in the open. I will be able to sleep well for the first night in a very long time.
maximus
blah about Maximus
(9:12:51 PM) me: i still think it's dispicable that you would make a new room to get maximus away
(9:13:10 PM) Matt: okay
(9:13:27 PM) Matt: not when everyone in the entire room doesnt like him
(9:13:33 PM) Matt: and only you do
(9:13:37 PM) me: Whatever.
(9:13:40 PM) Matt: and you're not even playing
(9:13:42 PM) me: This is why I fucking disadd you, this is why you annoy me.
(9:13:46 PM) me: It's fucking bullying.
(9:13:48 PM) me: It doesn't matter.
(9:13:52 PM) me: There's no reason not to LIKE him.
(9:13:56 PM) me: He hasn't done a god damned thing to ANYONE.
(9:13:58 PM) me: AND YOU FUCKING KNOW THAT.
(9:14:12 PM) Matt: loook
(9:14:13 PM) me: What, he happens to have a higher pitched voice than everyone? is that it?
(9:14:19 PM) me: All he's ever been is fucking NICE
(9:14:26 PM) Matt: to you
(9:14:29 PM) Matt: and only you
(9:14:30 PM) me: And all you fucking people think it's COOL FUN ETC to make FUN of him
(9:14:35 PM) me: He's never done nayhting to you guys!
(9:14:35 PM) Matt: amber amber amber
(9:14:37 PM) me: He's a fucking KID
(9:14:38 PM) me: HE IS A KID
(9:14:44 PM) me: HE'S NICE TO ME BECAUSE IM NICE TO HIM!
(9:14:50 PM) me: You guys are needlessly rude, nasty, etc with him!
(9:14:50 PM) Matt: okay
(9:14:55 PM) me: "maximus is a fag"
(9:14:57 PM) me: "maximus is annoying"
(9:14:58 PM) me: etc
(9:15:09 PM) me: he hasn't done ANYTHING and he couldn't fucking hurt a fly because he's a KID and actually rather innocent
(9:15:33 PM) Matt: okay
(9:15:35 PM) Matt: yea
(9:15:41 PM) me: Yeah, so why the fuck exclude him?
(9:15:42 PM) me: Oh yeah.
(9:15:44 PM) me: Because it's COOL.
(9:15:48 PM) me: Because it's cool to pick on maximus!
(9:15:54 PM) me: It's cool to bully the little kid! Yeah, that's real fucking manly.
(9:16:07 PM) me: Bully someone three years younger than you. That's the way to get the ladies and respect!
(9:16:22 PM) me: Amirite?
(9:16:32 PM) me: It's immature, it's fucking rude, and it's unnecessary.
(9:16:38 PM) Matt: okay
(9:16:40 PM) Matt: sure
(9:16:47 PM) Matt: okay
(9:16:54 PM) me: He gets enough of that at school.
(9:17:01 PM) me: Gets fucking picked on, pushed around because he's smaller than everone.
(9:17:27 PM) me: He doesn't need to come onto fucking Xbox live and feel excluded because a fucking bunch of boys who just hit puberty decided it was a cool thing to pick on someone three years younger than them.
(9:17:49 PM) me: Mainly AJ, which is why I don't fucking like him. There's no reason for him to be mean to Max and he's really the one who started it.
(9:18:02 PM) Matt: no max is
(9:18:11 PM) me: Max didn't do shit and you fucking know it.
(9:18:24 PM) Matt: max lied
(9:18:26 PM) me: He talks shit sometimes. Fucking tell him off and be done with it.
(9:18:30 PM) Matt: about activing
(9:18:38 PM) me: Don't antagonize him.
(9:18:59 PM) me: There's something dispicable and deplorable about antagonizing anyone let alone someone who lacks the proper maturity and age to deal with that kind of shit!
(9:19:14 PM) me: Though I truly doubt all of your maturity at this poitn.
(9:19:15 PM) me: ^*point
(9:19:39 PM) Matt: okay
(9:20:05 PM) me: This is why I don't play gears.
(9:20:10 PM) me: You ask, WHY DONT YOU PLAY GEARS ANYMORE ZOMG
(9:20:21 PM) me: It's because of this stupid BULLSHIT that you and the others CONSTANTLY PULL whenever Max and you guys get together!
(9:20:54 PM) me: max is nice to me because i'm nice to him. I'm sure max would be nice to aj, steve, etc if they were nice to him but they lack the ability to be nice because they're fucking assholes.
(9:21:12 PM) me: They'll do anything for a laugh including harrassing someone.
(9:21:18 PM) me: I just thought you were above that shit.
(9:22:03 PM) Matt: i am
(9:22:14 PM) Matt: you know im a nice person
(9:22:20 PM) Matt: you know that
(9:22:21 PM) me: I know you are. So I don't know why you do this I HATE MAX
(9:22:24 PM) me: MAX IS A FUCK
(9:22:25 PM) me: stuff.
(9:23:18 PM) Matt: hmmm
(9:23:24 PM) Matt: he is annoying
(9:23:40 PM) me: He's annoying. But he doesn't do it intentionally and that shouldn't cause hatred.
(9:23:53 PM) me: And even if you do hate him, you should ust keep it to yourself because he didn't really do anything wrong.
(9:24:35 PM) me: And it's not like you're superbad about it like aj and steve are.
(9:24:50 PM) Matt: what do you mean by that
(9:24:51 PM) Matt: ?
(9:24:57 PM) me: AJ and Steve are like
(9:25:05 PM) me: "Lol maximus, or should I say FAGISMUS"
(9:25:09 PM) me: when he hadn't said anything for a really long time
(9:25:21 PM) me: and it was pissing me off. maximus wasn't doing anything, wasn't replying
(9:25:42 PM) me: and they were continually antagonizing him every time at the dead zone
(9:25:44 PM) me: for NO APPARENT REASON
(9:25:48 PM) me: and he continued to not reply, kept quiet etc
(9:25:54 PM) me: Doesn't that fucking make you feel sad?
(9:26:50 PM) me: frankly I muted them all because it's that kind of bully mob mentality that I absolutely HATE in a person
(9:27:45 PM) me: why the hell is a 16, 17, and 19 year old ganging up on a 13 year old?
(9:27:52 PM) me: for the laughs?
(9:27:55 PM) me: that's WRONG
(9:27:57 PM) me: anyway you look at it
(9:28:09 PM) Matt: hmmm
(9:28:46 PM) me: I can't hate steve because he's my brother
(9:28:48 PM) me: but I do hate AJ for it
(9:28:54 PM) me: and hate is a word I use rarely and honestly mean it
(9:29:25 PM) me: AJ is alwyas about "being cool" and "keepin it real" but I find nothing "cool" about harrassing a kid that age.
the conversation basically ended there...
i got tired... i'm gonna go to bed soon...
10 things that make me happy!
Rules: The rules are easy, just post 10 things that recently made you happy! Then tag 10 people and force them to post this meme on their LJs. Because it is good. Everyone needs a little happiness once in a while.
01] Dale♥ Whenever I talk to him, I am happier. He makes my life worth living♥
02] Morning Musume & Ayu.. well, music in general, I guess. If it's a happy song, I get happy!
03] Getting stuff for free!
04] Steve and Amanda♥ My brother and my best friend! They can both cheer me up when I'm feeling upset or down. Steve is brutally honest which I really appreciate and Amanda always makes me feel good about myself.
05] Making other people happy. I sub so that other people can understand things and enjoy the videos better. I try to do my best everyday to help other people out when I can, and when I see that they are truly happy because of it, it makes me happier than anything.
06] Watching Tyra and court TV! And comedies too ♥ I love learning stuff, and I also love people who are inspirational, and things that make me laugh. Whenever I laugh, I'm happy.
07] When I actually work for something and can buy it myself. When I worked for those 1600 Microsoft Points and didn't make dad pay $20 for me, I felt so liberated and like I really earned them! (And I didn't spend them so quickly knowing that too XDD)
08] Dancing and singing. Singing mostly, unfortunately because it makes me so happy, when someone criticizes me, I get really upset T___T
09] Rock Band which is coming out in FOUR DAYS #(Y*RY*#RHOSDGHDSGH I CANNOT WAIT! We're gonna line up before Best Buy opens and rush in there and get a copy! ♥
10] Simple pleasures such as rain pattering outside the window or calm music. It makes me happy and peaceful.
Um.. I'm glad I did this. Because a lot of people say I'm super moody and angry all the time and hard to please, I think this is a list that can be useful. XDD
01] Dale♥ Whenever I talk to him, I am happier. He makes my life worth living♥
02] Morning Musume & Ayu.. well, music in general, I guess. If it's a happy song, I get happy!
03] Getting stuff for free!
04] Steve and Amanda♥ My brother and my best friend! They can both cheer me up when I'm feeling upset or down. Steve is brutally honest which I really appreciate and Amanda always makes me feel good about myself.
05] Making other people happy. I sub so that other people can understand things and enjoy the videos better. I try to do my best everyday to help other people out when I can, and when I see that they are truly happy because of it, it makes me happier than anything.
06] Watching Tyra and court TV! And comedies too ♥ I love learning stuff, and I also love people who are inspirational, and things that make me laugh. Whenever I laugh, I'm happy.
07] When I actually work for something and can buy it myself. When I worked for those 1600 Microsoft Points and didn't make dad pay $20 for me, I felt so liberated and like I really earned them! (And I didn't spend them so quickly knowing that too XDD)
08] Dancing and singing. Singing mostly, unfortunately because it makes me so happy, when someone criticizes me, I get really upset T___T
09] Rock Band which is coming out in FOUR DAYS #(Y*RY*#RHOSDGHDSGH I CANNOT WAIT! We're gonna line up before Best Buy opens and rush in there and get a copy! ♥
10] Simple pleasures such as rain pattering outside the window or calm music. It makes me happy and peaceful.
Um.. I'm glad I did this. Because a lot of people say I'm super moody and angry all the time and hard to please, I think this is a list that can be useful. XDD
carcassonne is addictive
this game is addictive. they're offering it for free for everyone on the 15th because it's xbl's 5 year anniversary and i thought it wouldn't be too good.
5 hours and 9 achievements later, i proved myself wrong (that's right, i only have 4 achievements to go, weeee).
anyone who has xbl should really give it a try especially since today you can download it for free and have it forever.
5 hours and 9 achievements later, i proved myself wrong (that's right, i only have 4 achievements to go, weeee).
anyone who has xbl should really give it a try especially since today you can download it for free and have it forever.
google encourages stalking
By googling my phone number not only did I find my Dad's name, but I also found our address and a fuckin' map to where we live!
Good thing about apartments: it didn't show which apartment building we live in, so it would be impossible to actually track us down.
Anyway, I used gaminglagoon to get myself 1600 Microsoft Points. I can't believe it actually worked, haha... I bought Puzzle Fighter which is a pretty fun game, and kept 800 points in case a game comes out that I want to buy RIGHT away. <33
Good thing about apartments: it didn't show which apartment building we live in, so it would be impossible to actually track us down.
Anyway, I used gaminglagoon to get myself 1600 Microsoft Points. I can't believe it actually worked, haha... I bought Puzzle Fighter which is a pretty fun game, and kept 800 points in case a game comes out that I want to buy RIGHT away. <33
a "real" entry
Since I haven't had most of these lately, I'm going to write a "real" entry which isn't just filler links or video or something. I don't have much to say though, so I'll just let a UL do it:
- I'm making a big image of a whole bunch of "secrets" I have. I don't know if I'll just end up deleting it in the end, but it feels good. I already have tons and tons and tons of secrets written down!
- Amanda moved. I miss her. T___T
- I was supposed to go to my gramma's a few days ago but I accidently stayed up too late, and when she called she just decided that we should do it some other time.
- Fansubbing is going great. Because I subbed Momusu's Mikan (here) only a day after it came on TV, it so far has around 1.6k views, and even got a few awards a few days ago. I'm pretty proud of that.
- Because people have been seeing that fansub, I have gotten at least 3 requests for me to join people's groups.
- ROCK BAND COMES IN 9 DAYS UYHR$*IHRHW*YVHJNDVJKNSDKNVSCKNjvn
- New layout : t0xicrain
That is all.
this is the reason I sub
I turned on my laptop, checked my email, and found myself browsing the Hello! Online tracker, where I saw someone had uploaded an English-subbed version of Mikan– which they fortunately uploaded to Youtube for lazy people like me. So I clicked on the link to watch, and when I was reading the translation and watching the PV– I honestly almost started bawling. I really don’t know why. Kind of the same way I don’t know why I started crying when I watched Koharu performing a solo of ‘Ai Araba IT’S ALL RIGHT.’ It very well could’ve been the fact that I was really sleep-deprived and not 100 percent awake yet, but there was something that felt really, really epic about the PV and the song meaning together. Needless to say, I’m just a huge fan of this single now.
- This blog, talking about my subs for Mikan.
I sub because I feel the English community deserves to know the meaning of songs the day they come out as well as the Japanese community.
I sub because I know at least one person will enjoy it.
I sub for the community's sake.
I sub because I feel the English community deserves to know the meaning of songs the day they come out as well as the Japanese community.
I sub because I know at least one person will enjoy it.
I sub for the community's sake.
So I googled my fansub name
And got some pretty interesting results. I think Sexy Snow is officially my most downloaded and shared video for whatever reason.
I'll leave out my profiles and official results but here are some interesting ones for "agrayrainbow":
- this person is offering my vids for download, which I'm completely OK with because he's giving credit
- Sexy Snow 1
- Sexy Snow 2
- Sexy Snow 3
- Sexy Snow 4
- Someone REQUESTING my W vid!?
- My translation of a diamond necklace article for Rika Ishikawa
- "What do foreign fans think of Chinese musumes?"
- Another one of my vids for download here
- I'm mentioned here, where I sang for a tribute for a friend that passed because of Muscular Dystrophy
I'll leave out my profiles and official results but here are some interesting ones for "agrayrainbow":
- this person is offering my vids for download, which I'm completely OK with because he's giving credit
- Sexy Snow 1
- Sexy Snow 2
- Sexy Snow 3
- Sexy Snow 4
- Someone REQUESTING my W vid!?
- My translation of a diamond necklace article for Rika Ishikawa
- "What do foreign fans think of Chinese musumes?"
- Another one of my vids for download here
- I'm mentioned here, where I sang for a tribute for a friend that passed because of Muscular Dystrophy
"Whatever Dad, I don't even care." means that.
I know I'm going to sound seriously like a spoiled bitch in this post. But what do I really care. I don't. I just have to get my feelings out.
My dad's a pretty manly man, and to see him cry (or at least hear him sniffling, I couldn't bring myself to look over) is pretty upsetting. I thought he just had a cold until he started to talk and his voice cracked. He said something like this:
"I'll go sell all those other games you just had to have tomorrow to buy this one that you just have to have."
Yes, now that makes me look horrible. But you have to know the rest of the story, really.
I've been wanting the game Rock Band for a good 7 months. No joke. I have never wanted anything more, video game or otherwise. That's all I've been thinking about. I've been dreaming about the fucking thing. I played it at Best Buy and I wanted it even more. Dad continued to reassure me that, "it'll be fine", "we'll get it", getting my hopes up and everything.
But it's easy to fucking talk when the release date isn't 3 weeks away, isn't it!
Now, I know we've been having a hard time. Both our cars are broken and Dad has to buy new parts. I understand that completely. But I've been hearing rumors that it's going to be hard to get it if you don't get it on the release date, and you'll have to wait until Christmas or maybe even worse.
So, I wasn't about to make Dad go out and buy it. No fucking way, no fucking how. I was pretty depressed, until I came up with a plan that I thought everyone could relate to: Gramma preorders, buys it on the release date, and Dad can pay her back at his will. It's good for Dad because he can pay it back when he feels comfortable that we have extra money. It's good for Gramma because I'm not going to ask for anything for Christmas and all she has to do is this one favor. It's good for me because I get the game that I want for Christmas on the day it releases.
I asked Dad yesterday if this sounded okay, not keeping anything from him and telling him exactly what I planned to tell Gramma. He said "That sounds like a good idea, go ahead and call her when we get home." Great, okay, I'll be able to get it on the release date.
But apparently, Dad is PMSing today.
I sent an email to Gramma yesterday about it, and then she called me back today. My email included buying it online because I thought that would be most convenient for her. But she thought that it would be better to go into Best Buy and preorder, then pick it up and pay for it later, so everything can be done locally. I insist that she talks to Dad because I figure Dad wants to hear everything and wants to make sure that everything is okay.
He goes bat shit insane.
He starts talking about how we don't have any money right now, how I "just can't wait" for it, and making me look like a bad person who didn't even ask him about the whole thing. Basically trash talking me to my own gramma after I told her I had asked him and all. And I did, unless I somehow magically dreamt up asking him (pretty sure I didn't). He hangs up, angry with Gramma, goes into the bathroom pissed and crying or whatever, then comes out and grabs the box of games, walking out the door saying,
"I'll go sell all those other games you just had to have tomorrow to buy this one that you just have to have."
I NEVER fucking ask for anything. Ever. The last thing I asked for something was March 2007 when I asked for the Xbox 360. That means for 9 months, I've just been quiet and happy with what I had. Even when my Guitar Hero II was broken, I didn't ask for it to be replaced. I've just been happy with what I have.
But when I finally fucking ask for one thing (especially so near Christmas) and come up with a plan that I can get it, Dad goes fucking batshit insane.
You know what, Dad? Your fucking PMSing is causing me physical pain because I'm so upset and your mood swings aren't welcome around me. If I knew that this game would bring SO MUCH fucking turmoil to us, then I would have never even paid any attention to it.
When he walked out the door, I said, "Whatever, Dad, I don't even care. I don't even want it now." And that's the truth, because no amount of physical pain or emotional turmoil is worth some stupid fucking game, no matter how good it is.
I'm going to bed (even though I just woke up). Fuck it.
I DON'T KNOW WHEN I'M GOING TO BE UP OR GET ONLINE, IF EVER SOON.
Right now I just feel like crawling in a hole and dying.
My dad's a pretty manly man, and to see him cry (or at least hear him sniffling, I couldn't bring myself to look over) is pretty upsetting. I thought he just had a cold until he started to talk and his voice cracked. He said something like this:
"I'll go sell all those other games you just had to have tomorrow to buy this one that you just have to have."
Yes, now that makes me look horrible. But you have to know the rest of the story, really.
I've been wanting the game Rock Band for a good 7 months. No joke. I have never wanted anything more, video game or otherwise. That's all I've been thinking about. I've been dreaming about the fucking thing. I played it at Best Buy and I wanted it even more. Dad continued to reassure me that, "it'll be fine", "we'll get it", getting my hopes up and everything.
But it's easy to fucking talk when the release date isn't 3 weeks away, isn't it!
Now, I know we've been having a hard time. Both our cars are broken and Dad has to buy new parts. I understand that completely. But I've been hearing rumors that it's going to be hard to get it if you don't get it on the release date, and you'll have to wait until Christmas or maybe even worse.
So, I wasn't about to make Dad go out and buy it. No fucking way, no fucking how. I was pretty depressed, until I came up with a plan that I thought everyone could relate to: Gramma preorders, buys it on the release date, and Dad can pay her back at his will. It's good for Dad because he can pay it back when he feels comfortable that we have extra money. It's good for Gramma because I'm not going to ask for anything for Christmas and all she has to do is this one favor. It's good for me because I get the game that I want for Christmas on the day it releases.
I asked Dad yesterday if this sounded okay, not keeping anything from him and telling him exactly what I planned to tell Gramma. He said "That sounds like a good idea, go ahead and call her when we get home." Great, okay, I'll be able to get it on the release date.
But apparently, Dad is PMSing today.
I sent an email to Gramma yesterday about it, and then she called me back today. My email included buying it online because I thought that would be most convenient for her. But she thought that it would be better to go into Best Buy and preorder, then pick it up and pay for it later, so everything can be done locally. I insist that she talks to Dad because I figure Dad wants to hear everything and wants to make sure that everything is okay.
He goes bat shit insane.
He starts talking about how we don't have any money right now, how I "just can't wait" for it, and making me look like a bad person who didn't even ask him about the whole thing. Basically trash talking me to my own gramma after I told her I had asked him and all. And I did, unless I somehow magically dreamt up asking him (pretty sure I didn't). He hangs up, angry with Gramma, goes into the bathroom pissed and crying or whatever, then comes out and grabs the box of games, walking out the door saying,
"I'll go sell all those other games you just had to have tomorrow to buy this one that you just have to have."
I NEVER fucking ask for anything. Ever. The last thing I asked for something was March 2007 when I asked for the Xbox 360. That means for 9 months, I've just been quiet and happy with what I had. Even when my Guitar Hero II was broken, I didn't ask for it to be replaced. I've just been happy with what I have.
But when I finally fucking ask for one thing (especially so near Christmas) and come up with a plan that I can get it, Dad goes fucking batshit insane.
You know what, Dad? Your fucking PMSing is causing me physical pain because I'm so upset and your mood swings aren't welcome around me. If I knew that this game would bring SO MUCH fucking turmoil to us, then I would have never even paid any attention to it.
When he walked out the door, I said, "Whatever, Dad, I don't even care. I don't even want it now." And that's the truth, because no amount of physical pain or emotional turmoil is worth some stupid fucking game, no matter how good it is.
I'm going to bed (even though I just woke up). Fuck it.
I DON'T KNOW WHEN I'M GOING TO BE UP OR GET ONLINE, IF EVER SOON.
Right now I just feel like crawling in a hole and dying.
tracking down old websites of mine
I think this is the oldest I can find, archived @ Oct 09, 2002.
Meh.. I need to stop reliving my past. I keep searching down people like Leo, Mercy, Gin, and Li, but those people, although they were very important friends to me before, are now gone in my life. I need to let the past be the past and stop trying to bring it back. I need to focus on the future now, because that's what's important.
Meh.. I need to stop reliving my past. I keep searching down people like Leo, Mercy, Gin, and Li, but those people, although they were very important friends to me before, are now gone in my life. I need to let the past be the past and stop trying to bring it back. I need to focus on the future now, because that's what's important.
happy halloween
I won’t be doing anything for Halloween but I just wanted to wish everyone a good one!
Now sleepy time for me.
ct2 fangirling ♥
I (and by I, I mean nyanko_nin) started playing Clock Tower 2 the other day. That is the ONLY game I think that I am better than her at 1 player mode in. I convinced her she should try to play it, and even hooked up the PS2 so she could. But she was hella confused and didn't know the exact steps to get through the level like I did.
It really made me think about old times back in 2002 and 2003 when I first saw that game. I rented Clock Tower 1 first, but I didn't really get to play it all that much so I asked Steve to rent it again for me (I didn't feel like going to the video rental store with my dad and him). He came back with Clock Tower 2 saying something like, "They didn't have the original one so I got this one".
I groaned with annoyance and decided to give this one a try. And although it had shoddy graphics and a confusing gameplay, I really loved the storyline and most of all, Bates. I don't know what it was, perhaps that I was a 12 or 13 year old girl and he seemed to be a badass guy, perhaps it was because he was the only good voice actor in the game, perhaps it was because he got all the best lines, but he was the one who made me shell out $40 to buy the game online (and $20 again on ebay later after I lent it to a friend I never saw again).
S'yeah, apparently Amanda (nyanko_nin) didn't get that far, but I started to watch the endings again on YouTube. I was of course very happy because I got to watch them but something that annoyed me the most was Bates' Japanese voice. It was a.. girl? What the hell? The voice actor sounded apathetic and there was no way in hell she could hold a candle to Roger L Jackson. When they say "Japanese voice acting is always better", they don't mean ALWAYS. Take it from me, rly.
Anyway, I think I'm getting back on a CT2 kick, which is always good. 8D Though I don't feel like unhooking the Xbox 360.. and just ended up playing UNO. I'm trying to get that last achievement! Can you blame me? That'll be the first game I ever finished. ♥ The second one will be ROCK BAND! Mwahaha, can't wait for that.
Well, money's been tight and I don't know whether I can buy The Orange Box but Dad said we could at least rent it again this weekend. I've been hyped about playing Team Fortress 2 again, which has serious replayability.
Maybe he'll buy it when I tell him he doesn't have to buy Army of Two in November (it was pushed back to 2008). Dale said he might get it too. Here's to hoping we have another multiplayer game to play, because as much as I like Gears I'm a little burned out on it...
PS: Rock Band's release date was pushed earlier, to Nov 20 which is 3 days earlier than Black Friday. Hurray! ♥
PPS: New layout
It really made me think about old times back in 2002 and 2003 when I first saw that game. I rented Clock Tower 1 first, but I didn't really get to play it all that much so I asked Steve to rent it again for me (I didn't feel like going to the video rental store with my dad and him). He came back with Clock Tower 2 saying something like, "They didn't have the original one so I got this one".
I groaned with annoyance and decided to give this one a try. And although it had shoddy graphics and a confusing gameplay, I really loved the storyline and most of all, Bates. I don't know what it was, perhaps that I was a 12 or 13 year old girl and he seemed to be a badass guy, perhaps it was because he was the only good voice actor in the game, perhaps it was because he got all the best lines, but he was the one who made me shell out $40 to buy the game online (and $20 again on ebay later after I lent it to a friend I never saw again).
S'yeah, apparently Amanda (nyanko_nin) didn't get that far, but I started to watch the endings again on YouTube. I was of course very happy because I got to watch them but something that annoyed me the most was Bates' Japanese voice. It was a.. girl? What the hell? The voice actor sounded apathetic and there was no way in hell she could hold a candle to Roger L Jackson. When they say "Japanese voice acting is always better", they don't mean ALWAYS. Take it from me, rly.
Anyway, I think I'm getting back on a CT2 kick, which is always good. 8D Though I don't feel like unhooking the Xbox 360.. and just ended up playing UNO. I'm trying to get that last achievement! Can you blame me? That'll be the first game I ever finished. ♥ The second one will be ROCK BAND! Mwahaha, can't wait for that.
Well, money's been tight and I don't know whether I can buy The Orange Box but Dad said we could at least rent it again this weekend. I've been hyped about playing Team Fortress 2 again, which has serious replayability.
Maybe he'll buy it when I tell him he doesn't have to buy Army of Two in November (it was pushed back to 2008). Dale said he might get it too. Here's to hoping we have another multiplayer game to play, because as much as I like Gears I'm a little burned out on it...
PS: Rock Band's release date was pushed earlier, to Nov 20 which is 3 days earlier than Black Friday. Hurray! ♥
PPS: New layout
wtf
my monitor now has ~110px dead at the bottom, stretching from left and right of my screen rendering its resolution to be about 1280 wide and 900 height. which is ironically the exact resolution for widescreen monitors, something i didn’t want in the first place.
god damn it
dunno when i can get it fixed if ever until i get a job
The Companion Cube ...
is not salvageable. Steve came over this weekend and I played The Orange Box a lot, so we tried to do some fun stuff. The first thing that we tried was... to save the Weighted Companion Cube on Portal.
We played the game up to that point and then when it came time to throw it in the fire, I spent about a half hour trying to get that door to open with the Companion Cube. I made it so the Companion Cube leaned against the door (and two cameras on the other side so it would go at the right angle) and it fell into place without having to be on the button, therefore leaving the door open. I took the Companion Cube in the chamber with me, and then it proceeded to taunt me.
"Through no fault of our own, for the sake of everything participating in this test, you have managed to trap yourself in this room. A complimentary escape hatch will open in three, two...," GLaDOS taunted.
After that, I whined and told them that I was just going to use the cheat to put portals anywhere. I did and stood on the button, then made a portal at the back of the room. We realized that it doesn't taunt you and open up the hatch unless you actually have the Companion Cube with you.
We tried SO MANY things to get her to open the door along with letting us keep the cube. We found that even if we put a portal at the bottom of the incinerator, the cube would dissolve before we got it there. So then we put one at the bottom of the incinerator and one on the wall, and tried to bring it into the incinerator with us. It still dissolved as soon as we put it in the wall.
Through our studies of around an hour, we have figured out that it's IMPOSSIBLE to bring the Companion Cube back with us.
We played the game up to that point and then when it came time to throw it in the fire, I spent about a half hour trying to get that door to open with the Companion Cube. I made it so the Companion Cube leaned against the door (and two cameras on the other side so it would go at the right angle) and it fell into place without having to be on the button, therefore leaving the door open. I took the Companion Cube in the chamber with me, and then it proceeded to taunt me.
"Through no fault of our own, for the sake of everything participating in this test, you have managed to trap yourself in this room. A complimentary escape hatch will open in three, two...," GLaDOS taunted.
After that, I whined and told them that I was just going to use the cheat to put portals anywhere. I did and stood on the button, then made a portal at the back of the room. We realized that it doesn't taunt you and open up the hatch unless you actually have the Companion Cube with you.
We tried SO MANY things to get her to open the door along with letting us keep the cube. We found that even if we put a portal at the bottom of the incinerator, the cube would dissolve before we got it there. So then we put one at the bottom of the incinerator and one on the wall, and tried to bring it into the incinerator with us. It still dissolved as soon as we put it in the wall.
Through our studies of around an hour, we have figured out that it's IMPOSSIBLE to bring the Companion Cube back with us.
doing something
I'm finally doing something with [songforxx.org](http://songforxx.org/)
I'm gonna write about Abe's new PV in a few days, look forward to that.
Anyway, the reason I'm mentioning it is because all my H!P/Ayu related rants are going to be there from now on instead of cluttering my journal, haha. (Not that I talk about it that often..)
Hopefully I have enough ambition to keep it going
I'm gonna write about Abe's new PV in a few days, look forward to that.
Anyway, the reason I'm mentioning it is because all my H!P/Ayu related rants are going to be there from now on instead of cluttering my journal, haha. (Not that I talk about it that often..)
Hopefully I have enough ambition to keep it going
I'm done with Video Games for awhile.
I'm going to finish playing the games I rented and then I'm going to be done with video games for awhile.
Why? Because everyone online is a fucking JACKASS. I mean, mostly everyone. There are a rare few who are actually nice (who I met tonight) but the stress of the other assholes overpowers any sort of nice people in any sort of sense. The people who are rude are just too many, the ratio is like 1000:1. Every 1000 people I meet, one of them will be nice and actually civil.
Because everyone knows, Anonymous + Audience = Complete Jackass. Tonight I have really figured out this equation more than I have ever known it before.
And for that matter, every time Dale leaves I'm just going to leave too. The only reason I stayed was because some guy who I *thought* was nice and ended up being a complete and utter JACKASS. It just goes to show, you cannot trust ANYONE. ANYONE. AT. ALL. The only people you can trust in this world are your family, your close friends, and people you have known for quite some time. That's ALL.
Anyone else will guaranteed, given a few hours time, turn into a complete jackass simply because they think that they've grown "closer" to you or are on first name basis.
That's another rant I have. Other people on Gears hear me called by [redacted] by Dale and a few other people, and completely RANDOM people (whom I don't know the name of) decide that it's okay to call me by my first name.
What bitch? I didn't realize knowing me for an hour or two constitutes first name basis. Call me by my username at least until I know your name, and it's rude to casually speak to someone with their name if you've heard it third hand. I did not introduce myself to you, bitch, therefore you should have no fucking RIGHT to call me by my name.
Whatever.
/rant
Why? Because everyone online is a fucking JACKASS. I mean, mostly everyone. There are a rare few who are actually nice (who I met tonight) but the stress of the other assholes overpowers any sort of nice people in any sort of sense. The people who are rude are just too many, the ratio is like 1000:1. Every 1000 people I meet, one of them will be nice and actually civil.
Because everyone knows, Anonymous + Audience = Complete Jackass. Tonight I have really figured out this equation more than I have ever known it before.
And for that matter, every time Dale leaves I'm just going to leave too. The only reason I stayed was because some guy who I *thought* was nice and ended up being a complete and utter JACKASS. It just goes to show, you cannot trust ANYONE. ANYONE. AT. ALL. The only people you can trust in this world are your family, your close friends, and people you have known for quite some time. That's ALL.
Anyone else will guaranteed, given a few hours time, turn into a complete jackass simply because they think that they've grown "closer" to you or are on first name basis.
That's another rant I have. Other people on Gears hear me called by [redacted] by Dale and a few other people, and completely RANDOM people (whom I don't know the name of) decide that it's okay to call me by my first name.
What bitch? I didn't realize knowing me for an hour or two constitutes first name basis. Call me by my username at least until I know your name, and it's rude to casually speak to someone with their name if you've heard it third hand. I did not introduce myself to you, bitch, therefore you should have no fucking RIGHT to call me by my name.
Whatever.
/rant
I think I'm addicted to changing my layout
I think I’m addicted to changing my layout. But, I’m going to keep it the same until I find a better one for now. 8D Also, I made my own mood theme. It features MOSTLY Niigaki, SOME Nakazawa, A LITTLE Nacchi, and sprinkles of other members. It features mostly Niigaki because I could find mood stuff for her the most because she’s the “reaction queen”.
Anyway, actual life events will be updated on later. Hurray ;D