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I don't know!
You guys! Don't hoard me with comments about why M left! She went to greymatter, another journal service. It is said in another one of her journal entries O_o, pay more attention instead of trying to comment so much....
Alright?
Alright?
my dad sucks
my dads bein mean.. he said he might get aol cut off..
._.
so if I don't write for a week, you know I've been shut off..
God, life sucks, and so does my dad.
He has me crying almost every night from the things he says..
;_;
So this might be my last entry.
._.
so if I don't write for a week, you know I've been shut off..
God, life sucks, and so does my dad.
He has me crying almost every night from the things he says..
;_;
So this might be my last entry.
newbies
Time: 12:00 pm.
gah.. i'm in a rp.. its overcrouded with newbies! HELP! BEING .. OVERFLOWED!!!!
Time: 8:50 am.
Friends list cleaning. People that have been taken off my friends list because of lack of interest (or they just never comment). Look at my userinfo to see if you've been taken off, and if you comment here saying you want to be back on, then you need to comment more!
gah.. i'm in a rp.. its overcrouded with newbies! HELP! BEING .. OVERFLOWED!!!!
Time: 8:50 am.
Friends list cleaning. People that have been taken off my friends list because of lack of interest (or they just never comment). Look at my userinfo to see if you've been taken off, and if you comment here saying you want to be back on, then you need to comment more!
stupid mom
Time: 10:32 pm.
This isn't fair. I'm happy for the Nicest Person In The World, Yuna, but it isn't fair that she has a paid account.
I'm steamed.
I've been wanting a paid account forever now!
Time: 9:52 pm.
Okay, time to YELL AND SCREAM!
If you don't like swearing, don't read on.
GRR! When it was my birthday, I got .. about 5 comments wishing me happy birthday. My mother didn't even come to see me on my birthday! And Yuna gets a million and one comments on her lj! And even a present! You know how bad I felt when my mother didn't visit me on my birthday? You know how even worse I felt when I didn't get barely any recognition!! yer_own_names doesn't barely recognise me either.
I always do things around my house and no one ever gives me anything.
WHY?
I've been through so0 much shit in my life you people don't even know! By the time I was 12, my parents had devorced, I had to go to Child Protective Services, and I had to testify in court!
How does THAT sound? Hmm? I'm not all peaches and cream like I look and sound!
This isn't fair! But I know at least one person is going to comment : "Hun, life isn't fair." You know what? To that person who comments that: FUCK OFF!
You know what? To the world: FUCK OFF!
To my mom: FUCK OFF!
To the people who can't recognise: FUCK OFF!
Everyone whos been through shit in their lives would know where I'm coming from. I used to cry and cry myself to sleep every night! How do you think I felt when my mom got arrested on my brothers birthday? How do you think I felt livin in the heights! Those damned people poisoned our dog and killed him!
My moms boyfriend (now husband) is really REALLY abusive! But lucky I'm living at my dads. But it doesn't matter, I fight with my dad too!
Why can't anyone understand where I'm coming from? It makes me super depressed.
I'm not going to kill myself.
I can live on.
I always go through this shit.
I am strong.
But am I strong enough to live through this? Should I see counsiling? I've already had to see counsiling because of my mom. Whats up with that? My moms a drunk, and so is her husband. Whats up with that? My dad still has child support coming out of his check going to my mom when my moms not supporting us: he is. Whats up with that?
The world can be incredibaly cruel! Whats up with that?
I feel like crawling in bed. ._.
I've already given myself a headache.
And another thing: we're very poor! My dad keeps saying "As soon as we start getting money..." but I know thats NEVER going to happen! We will always be poor!
I'll probably die from lack of food!
So whats up with that?
.....Why? Theres so much I want to say.. yet lack the words to say it.
And another thing: I haven't even had a crush or boyfriend! And I'm 12! I must be a weirdo or something!
I know I'm a weirdo.
......
What about my moms boyfriend with his 9mm and his crowbar? What about him beating up my mom and I?
What about me going to 14 different schools?
What about me moving 10 times?
What about me always losing my friends when I move?
What about me, always alone because of my life?
What about me, the loner, the weird girl no one wants to talk to?
What about all the people that have suffered?
What about those rich snobs who think they're all that?
What about those people who can get whatever they want, whenever they want?
What about all of those lies that my mom told me to shut me up?
What about my car? Wheres my brand new car that I was promised?
What about that $100 a week my dads paying to my mom for "supporting us", when he is?
What about the FUCKING people who think they've got it bad, when they've really got it easy?
Where's my "happy birthday!"?
Where the fuck did my "happy birthday!" go?!
WHAT ABOUT THE FUCKIN BIRTHDAY PARTY THAT I NEVER GOT?!
What about my brother and I sitting in that child protective area, waiting for our gramma to come?
What about all those tears I cried when my mom said I got her arrested?
What about me being beat?
What about it all?
What about the mom that I never had.. the mom that wasn't there..?
Time: 7:55 pm.
Bored. Another layout change.
This isn't fair. I'm happy for the Nicest Person In The World, Yuna, but it isn't fair that she has a paid account.
I'm steamed.
I've been wanting a paid account forever now!
Time: 9:52 pm.
Okay, time to YELL AND SCREAM!
If you don't like swearing, don't read on.
GRR! When it was my birthday, I got .. about 5 comments wishing me happy birthday. My mother didn't even come to see me on my birthday! And Yuna gets a million and one comments on her lj! And even a present! You know how bad I felt when my mother didn't visit me on my birthday? You know how even worse I felt when I didn't get barely any recognition!! yer_own_names doesn't barely recognise me either.
I always do things around my house and no one ever gives me anything.
WHY?
I've been through so0 much shit in my life you people don't even know! By the time I was 12, my parents had devorced, I had to go to Child Protective Services, and I had to testify in court!
How does THAT sound? Hmm? I'm not all peaches and cream like I look and sound!
This isn't fair! But I know at least one person is going to comment : "Hun, life isn't fair." You know what? To that person who comments that: FUCK OFF!
You know what? To the world: FUCK OFF!
To my mom: FUCK OFF!
To the people who can't recognise: FUCK OFF!
Everyone whos been through shit in their lives would know where I'm coming from. I used to cry and cry myself to sleep every night! How do you think I felt when my mom got arrested on my brothers birthday? How do you think I felt livin in the heights! Those damned people poisoned our dog and killed him!
My moms boyfriend (now husband) is really REALLY abusive! But lucky I'm living at my dads. But it doesn't matter, I fight with my dad too!
Why can't anyone understand where I'm coming from? It makes me super depressed.
I'm not going to kill myself.
I can live on.
I always go through this shit.
I am strong.
But am I strong enough to live through this? Should I see counsiling? I've already had to see counsiling because of my mom. Whats up with that? My moms a drunk, and so is her husband. Whats up with that? My dad still has child support coming out of his check going to my mom when my moms not supporting us: he is. Whats up with that?
The world can be incredibaly cruel! Whats up with that?
I feel like crawling in bed. ._.
I've already given myself a headache.
And another thing: we're very poor! My dad keeps saying "As soon as we start getting money..." but I know thats NEVER going to happen! We will always be poor!
I'll probably die from lack of food!
So whats up with that?
.....Why? Theres so much I want to say.. yet lack the words to say it.
And another thing: I haven't even had a crush or boyfriend! And I'm 12! I must be a weirdo or something!
I know I'm a weirdo.
......
What about my moms boyfriend with his 9mm and his crowbar? What about him beating up my mom and I?
What about me going to 14 different schools?
What about me moving 10 times?
What about me always losing my friends when I move?
What about me, always alone because of my life?
What about me, the loner, the weird girl no one wants to talk to?
What about all the people that have suffered?
What about those rich snobs who think they're all that?
What about those people who can get whatever they want, whenever they want?
What about all of those lies that my mom told me to shut me up?
What about my car? Wheres my brand new car that I was promised?
What about that $100 a week my dads paying to my mom for "supporting us", when he is?
What about the FUCKING people who think they've got it bad, when they've really got it easy?
Where's my "happy birthday!"?
Where the fuck did my "happy birthday!" go?!
WHAT ABOUT THE FUCKIN BIRTHDAY PARTY THAT I NEVER GOT?!
What about my brother and I sitting in that child protective area, waiting for our gramma to come?
What about all those tears I cried when my mom said I got her arrested?
What about me being beat?
What about it all?
What about the mom that I never had.. the mom that wasn't there..?
Time: 7:55 pm.
Bored. Another layout change.
KaZaA
Time: 10:29 pm.
Amandas sister, Shelly, came home.
I don't know what to say about this.
Time: 10:26 pm.
Downloading KaZaA.
< edit >
Not anymore.
< / edit >
Time: 10:03 pm.
gah my computer lykes laggin......
Time: 9:38 pm.
Gah, furcadia is confuzleing
Time: 7:59 pm.
bored n stuff..hoping this'll post
Subject: Go say happy birthday.
Time: 4:47 pm.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUNA!!!!!!! GO SAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HER! GO NOW! I'M FORCING YOU!
GAHHH! WHY HAVEN'T YOU WENT YET?! DON'T YOU CARE?
happy birthday yuna!!!!!!! go say happy birthday to her! go now! i'm forcing you! gahhh! why haven't you went yet?! don't you care?!
< edit >
new layout. i know its a bit soon bUt.. oh well...
my props go to yer_own_names. okie.
bai.
Amandas sister, Shelly, came home.
I don't know what to say about this.
Time: 10:26 pm.
Downloading KaZaA.
< edit >
Not anymore.
< / edit >
Time: 10:03 pm.
gah my computer lykes laggin......
Time: 9:38 pm.
Gah, furcadia is confuzleing
Time: 7:59 pm.
bored n stuff..hoping this'll post
Subject: Go say happy birthday.
Time: 4:47 pm.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUNA!!!!!!! GO SAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HER! GO NOW! I'M FORCING YOU!
GAHHH! WHY HAVEN'T YOU WENT YET?! DON'T YOU CARE?
happy birthday yuna!!!!!!! go say happy birthday to her! go now! i'm forcing you! gahhh! why haven't you went yet?! don't you care?!
< edit >
new layout. i know its a bit soon bUt.. oh well...
my props go to yer_own_names. okie.
bai.
overflowing
Time: 7:58 pm.
Its ovverfllooowing! Heeelp!
Time: 5:57 pm.
Watched Austin Powers: Goldmember... it was funny!
Drew new picture yesterday, (an original that I named "Aynn"), and put it on my My drawing site.
N' thats it.
Its ovverfllooowing! Heeelp!
Time: 5:57 pm.
Watched Austin Powers: Goldmember... it was funny!
Drew new picture yesterday, (an original that I named "Aynn"), and put it on my My drawing site.
N' thats it.
stuck in my head
Time: 8:39 pm.
hey you know off ddr konamix, that song "gimme-your-love by divas"? I have it in my head
yeah went over to moms. had steak and bought blue fuzzy slippys! ^_^ I like the slippys the best.
new layout! HEHEHEHEHE!
COME VISIT MY NEW PAGES!!!!:
my charrie bios
My icon page - icons I've made
Angela sucks. - angela sucks.: Dedicated to my friend, because my friend has trouble with a girl named Angela. Full story there.
My drawings page (request a drawing by emailing me: lynnmaxweil@aol.com) - self explainitory
Character page.. join today! Please! I need members.. - my character page: making a story. COME JOIN COME JOIN COME JOIN AND I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER!!!!!
Thats it for now.
Time: 9:46 am.
Beautiful song callled: Si Il Mio Amer Sta Vincino
If I were how everyone says I am
Then how cruel is God
Who has given me life
Believe me
I'm just a pitiful woman
Who's merely thinking of the man she loves
No
Even if no one believes me
If my beloved is by my side
I would gladly accept any punishment
Please, God
Hear the prayers of this poor woman
Pretty, isn't it? If someone would tell me the code to put music in the background of my lj, I would make it that..
Time: 8:33 am.
from xreflex commented in weamnotpsycho: "this comment has nothing to do with the community, but i'd just like to say thta lulu_mcbrea has THE creepiest icon i've seen. it's almost as scary as well. . .i dunno. . .it's late and i'm tired. yay! hurray for meaningles comments!"
crap It says "Stick with nick, we're having techincal difficulties" and it has spongebobs music playing. THIS IS SCARING ME! Okay its back on now.
Sandys rocket.
Yay.
I'm up at 8:00 am on the computer. Why am I up at 8 am on the computer? Am I nuts?
And someone tell me how to puts music in the background of my journal, its killing me.
Thats it.
Takin icon requests if anyone wants one; no animations.
Awesome.
hey you know off ddr konamix, that song "gimme-your-love by divas"? I have it in my head
yeah went over to moms. had steak and bought blue fuzzy slippys! ^_^ I like the slippys the best.
new layout! HEHEHEHEHE!
COME VISIT MY NEW PAGES!!!!:
my charrie bios
My icon page - icons I've made
Angela sucks. - angela sucks.: Dedicated to my friend, because my friend has trouble with a girl named Angela. Full story there.
My drawings page (request a drawing by emailing me: lynnmaxweil@aol.com) - self explainitory
Character page.. join today! Please! I need members.. - my character page: making a story. COME JOIN COME JOIN COME JOIN AND I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER!!!!!
Thats it for now.
Time: 9:46 am.
Beautiful song callled: Si Il Mio Amer Sta Vincino
If I were how everyone says I am
Then how cruel is God
Who has given me life
Believe me
I'm just a pitiful woman
Who's merely thinking of the man she loves
No
Even if no one believes me
If my beloved is by my side
I would gladly accept any punishment
Please, God
Hear the prayers of this poor woman
Pretty, isn't it? If someone would tell me the code to put music in the background of my lj, I would make it that..
Time: 8:33 am.
from xreflex commented in weamnotpsycho: "this comment has nothing to do with the community, but i'd just like to say thta lulu_mcbrea has THE creepiest icon i've seen. it's almost as scary as well. . .i dunno. . .it's late and i'm tired. yay! hurray for meaningles comments!"
crap It says "Stick with nick, we're having techincal difficulties" and it has spongebobs music playing. THIS IS SCARING ME! Okay its back on now.
Sandys rocket.
Yay.
I'm up at 8:00 am on the computer. Why am I up at 8 am on the computer? Am I nuts?
And someone tell me how to puts music in the background of my journal, its killing me.
Thats it.
Takin icon requests if anyone wants one; no animations.
Awesome.
rpin
Time: 10:25 pm.
rpin wit jessica n amanda roite now
Time: 9:50 pm.
help.....boredism.
plus my dad is mad at me. man..
Time: 9:02 pm.
Quiz Results: I am 57% Internet Addict
I am pretty addicted, but there is hope. I think I'm just well connected to the internet and technology, but it's really a start of a drug-like addiction. I must act now! Unplug this computer!
Time: 8:54 pm.
Taking icon requests. request one now. wwhhheeee.
oh yeah i'm supposed to be shutting up. ^_^
Time: 8:53 pm.
I talk too much! Someone shut me up! Quick like!
Time: 8:49 pm.
BORED BORED BORED
someone IM me at lynnmaxwell @ aol.com
or email me.
Time: 8:36 pm.
uuugh just kill me.
now.
rpin wit jessica n amanda roite now
Time: 9:50 pm.
help.....boredism.
plus my dad is mad at me. man..
Time: 9:02 pm.
Quiz Results: I am 57% Internet Addict
I am pretty addicted, but there is hope. I think I'm just well connected to the internet and technology, but it's really a start of a drug-like addiction. I must act now! Unplug this computer!
Time: 8:54 pm.
Taking icon requests. request one now. wwhhheeee.
oh yeah i'm supposed to be shutting up. ^_^
Time: 8:53 pm.
I talk too much! Someone shut me up! Quick like!
Time: 8:49 pm.
BORED BORED BORED
someone IM me at lynnmaxwell @ aol.com
or email me.
Time: 8:36 pm.
uuugh just kill me.
now.
gyeh
Time: 11:14 pm. steals now4evers word.. gyeh.
Time: 11:09 pm. I need lj codes. I need a paid account on lj. Someone help. Be nice. Come on. STILL TRYING TO GIVE AWAY this wun ( i can delete the layout ) AND NOW maybe this wun i dunno
Time: 10:28 pm. Dorky me! I'm going lj crazy today. Well who likes my new lj style? dance on the edge of danger
Time: 10:05 pm. My drawings site is up So far it has Tifa and Aeris of ffvii. Taking requests. Request one by commenting! P.S.: I drew yuffie, but it isn't uploading. >.<';;
Time: 11:09 pm. I need lj codes. I need a paid account on lj. Someone help. Be nice. Come on. STILL TRYING TO GIVE AWAY this wun ( i can delete the layout ) AND NOW maybe this wun i dunno
Time: 10:28 pm. Dorky me! I'm going lj crazy today. Well who likes my new lj style? dance on the edge of danger
Time: 10:05 pm. My drawings site is up So far it has Tifa and Aeris of ffvii. Taking requests. Request one by commenting! P.S.: I drew yuffie, but it isn't uploading. >.<';;
new layout information
my new layout wont be up for awhile due to boomspeed being stupid. okay? so0 heres the info on the new layout:
stephanie tate
v.??
black, orange, and green scheme (to fit stephanies outfit)
really really cool loooking
Transcribed 2000-07-31
I dislike Steven. He and John took all the (ed note: hard to read what is written here. “jokes”?) It isn’t fair! I don’t care!
Transcribed 2000-07-29
Seince my grandmother Peggy has passed away, I took this journel & the pocket blessings that were with it. I am still in shock and sorrow for Grandma Peggy passing away. I loved her alot and I am very thankful for the years that I have had with her. My grandmother was one of true blessings I have had in my life. Like my dad says “People Sorrow In Diffrent Ways.” I wright my feelings & sorrow through paper. I loved her & still do. It was one of the greatest loses of my life so far. The funeral was very sad! I’m poreing all my feeling on paper right now so only my (1) Dad, (2) Brother, (3) Mom, & I can read this. Bye 4 now
Transcribed 2000-07-25
I went to Greenfield Village 2 days ago and it was so fun! We rode the train first thing. I loved it. Greenfield Village was so fun!
Transcribed 2000-07-20
Today, I’m going to Greenfield Village with my Grandma Stasik. I think it’s going to be fun! We go at 1:00. I will wear my new clothes. I am going to bring my book & a pad of paper with markers. When we get there, we (hopefully) will ride a train. I hope we have fun at Greenfield Village (with my grandma) today!