needing.space

i don’t have anything to write about tonight. i don’t want to go back into work tomorrow, i am so lazy. i just want to keep being lazyyy

someone give me 10 million dollars so i can just be lazy forever please

i don’t even know why i feel this way cuz my job is super easy and i have nothing to complain about. lmao

at least i can keep listening to audiobooks while i’m working!

easy job zzzz i ♡ my life lmao

long time no write. i promised the therapist that i would journal so here it is. i don’t really ever know what to write about tho.

i ended up being hired @ merit as well. its pretty awesome

tonight i watched the Date: 2022 anju concert and it was really good.

um that’s all

It’s going to be hard, it looks like Elias may finally be getting laid off. I think it’s a blessing in disguise though. Welocalize has proven to be the shittiest little garbage company ever created. He already has a lot of promising interviews anyway.

Curious to see how it turns out. with how slow I am to update this thing, I’ll be Christmas and long past this dilemma so hopefully I can write an update.

My job is fine. I wish it was busier. But when it is busy, I get stressed out. I should just enjoy the “downtime” while its here i guess. I’m still going to ask tomorrow if Heather has anything she wants me to be doing. Since it seems like she kinda is my manager. I just wish it were clearer.

Who knows whats going to happen next. Life keeps going, and my life is pretty good right now. I just need to call dad at some point soon, I miss him…

Yesterday I got a raise @ work! That was nice. Last week, Phil and I went up to Fort Worth so that we could go to the potluck. It was fun.

This past weekend we decided to go no contact with the mother in law because she did something really horrible. I don’t like the way she has chosen to live her life. I think it’s pretty pathetic.

Today I had a really bad dr appt. It’s getting old to hear I’m fat. I know I am.

Anyway, that’s all.

tomorrow is the last day @ welocalize and it’s so weird?? they offered me a position on the financial team, but i’ve had a few interviews with better fits. i had already “accepted” the position with welo and it feels kind of bad to renege but it’s my life and i need to do my best for myself. not for anyone else, especially a company that treats their employees as disposable

still, it’s weird… we have been with welo for 2 years now, so quitting seems strange. it’s the same amount of time we were @ vtg, but vtg feels longer? maybe because we switched positions but it might also have been the general hectic atmosphere of Date: 2019+Date: 2020

anyway, it’s the end of an era. honestly fuck welo as a company and fuck anyone high enough in the food chain that they enable the bullshit.

(once again too lazy to get up and get stickers)

this last week was absolute chaos. between trauma dates, super busy work and the winter storm it snowed a lot for texas and everyone’s power had gone out.

on the bright side, i got paid on friday and i started a latch hook. it’s a rainbow latchhook. i hope i can finish it within the next few weeks.

i am going to have an interview next wednesday for a jewelry place and i had one last week for a freelance health care position. i am just mad at localice for how terrible and busy this week has been.

hopefully we get a new better paying job sooner than later.

i’m going to bed now because my neck hurts. and i also can’t write much without my hand and arm hurting.

today it is Saturday. it is supposed to snow tomorrow. the low is 8°! can you believe it? it’s supposed to be texas…

tomorrow is valentines day! ♡ after that is… ☹

hey! long time no talk. the only real big change we have is, that we got our top surgery done! yay ♡

honestly the only reason i am picking this back up is so i have an excuse to use my stickers haha. and various other stationery.

today i’m having my follow up appt for top surgery. wish me luck!! ♡

I am trying to get over my anxiety of using stickers lol

I can’t believe we have had this stupid journal for five years.

This year we are making mac+cheese for the work potluck.

Missed yesterday oh well. Not my fault/problem. Today was a good day. I was super lazy at work today. It’s a Thursday so we are on the lazy side…

This weekend is tool & I am super excited!

I am also super tired. I don’t know how or why. I hope I can get into a new psych soon. I am figuring it out, but for now just sticking with Baylor, but with a different doctor. My current doctor sucks big old monkey nuts.

I am grateful that I am not in the spooky torture house :/ (ed note: I think talking about the McKenny house or whatever, probably watched a video about it)

Grateful:

• Got paid
• Can afford meds
• Found new doctor
• Job is easy
• Job pays living wage
• Today felt short
• Fridge!!!

Not gonna lie, there was a lot of negativity today that I could write about, but I would rather stay positive. what will I be for halloween….

I am happy because of the prospect of a new doctor, I want to go to the clinic that has many doctors all in one. That would be more convenient.

Also I found a place where I can finance a fridge so I am super happy!! I already got approved and it is on sale because it has cosmetic damage. I am super happy that we will finally have a good fridge. We need it and have needed it for awhile now.

Okay we got home really late so I am going to sign off here so I can get to bed.

Overall, despite its obstacles today was a good day.

PS Elias got back on meds so he should be feeling better soon! Yay :)