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Everything turned out fine. Better than fine, actually. We aren’t overeating or over spending anymore! And we are really happy in general. This is probably the best we have ever felt.

I ate so much today! I’m so full

Before Wellbutrin that wouldn’t have made me full, but here we are.

Overall life is going great. And this Friday we will actually be caught up on bills. I am super excited!

Also fuck Welocalize for giving us a 2 week unpaid vacation.

Grateful for:

• Yummy food
• Easy job
• Good friends and family
• Ability to relax
• That I am only working 40 hours (rip steve)
• That my meds are working!
• I am losing weight without trying (185 this morning)
• Raven is so amazing
• I love my pets

Bet you thought you saw the last of me?

Today was our last day at vtg. Mixed feelings but I think (hope) we are going and doing the right thing. If not, I don’t know. Only time will tell all I do know is that environment had grown really toxic, mostly because of Jessica. Looking forward to being in a place that doesn’t have everyone at five years.

Welocalize is the new place. Hope they are good. Linguistics Tester also sounds cool on a resume. Hopefully we can move closer north because the commute will hard core suck until then.

I also think it would be super funny if vtg started falling from no itineraries.

Shouldn’t have taken for granted your best worker?

Spoiler alert: I didn’t keep it more updated. I’m not sure how to start after so long. We both got on T and we got a cat. Elias is quitting his job next week. Last week he passed out and had to go to the ER.

All that besides… I will try to write about my day.

I woke up very tired. Elias has had many days off this week. My new phone, Pixel 2, came in. I dropped the auto refinance paperwork at the UPS. We are not getting misgendered at all anymore. A customer at UPS called us “that gentleman”. The brother says we grow a beard better than he does.

I wore size 12 jeans, and they were too big. Our weight is probably hovering around 180?? So long as my pants still fit, it’s mostly whatever.

Tomorrow is W2D3 of C25K. We might have to repeat week 2 because we suck. The 1:30 runs are killing us. It is very fun though.

I am going to bed now. Good night.

Long time no write. A few things have happened. We went on vacation a few weeks ago, and it was so fun! Went to Louisiana. It was a good recharge, and I can’t wait to do it again soon.

Today we went to the Japan Festival which was also very fun. We saw Tia and ate Japanese food. We were unprepared financially, so I would like to go with more money next time.

We are getting our finances in order finally. We got a speeding ticket on the vacation (oops) that will be $200 and spending so much on vacation prompted us to start saving more. We are automating everything, so we should be able to do this!

Anyway. Too tired to write more. Hope I can remember to keep this more updated. Maybe put it in a more prominent spot?

I wish we weren’t on rocky waters with literally everything. We have been in serious “push everyone away” mode & grumpy about it to boot. Getting into arguments for no reason, trying to isolate, etc.

I think it’s because we have been in the apartment officially, one year. Has us stir crazy & trying to sabotage. However, we will be going on a trip for a week soon and hopefully that will reset our brain.

Also, we are 192 lbs now. Can’t really talk about it with anyone so I will talk here. Proud but also worried we go overboard with not eating. Trying to find a balance.

At least we will finally reach our goal @ the end of the year-ish.

Dear Universe, can tomorrow just be over with already? Cranked my Anxiety Meds up to 1.5 as per the doctors orders and it couldn’t be happening on a better night because I’m so worried about the yearly review trauma date one-two punch tomorrow.

Today, however, was lovely. Spent the day with my wife and cooked chili in the Instant Pot. It turned out great. I did, however, accidentally spill water on my wireless headphones and shorted them out. Ah, well. Another one bites the dust.

“(Operation) Day 3 of Consecutive Exercise” went well. Knee started to flare up so jumped on the bike and instantly remembered how much we loved it, so going to do that instead of walking / running. Wanting to ease up to 45 min of biking per day. Really, if I can do that, then I have no excuse not to bike to work even when it’s hot. Sometimes it’s even faster than driving.

Ate an obscene amount of chocolate, but still stayed under my caloric limit. Plus, it doesn’t happen often. Lose It! has a great database.

This is the week that never ends. Jesus. The review looms closer. Just Wednesday to get through, then the review. Super unfortunate that it’s so slow @ work right now, hard to prove that we have made progress. My biggest worry is that we are going to get lots of criticism, which we can’t really take on such a big trauma date.

Why did we have to get hired on this date in particular?! Crazy unlucky.

Diet/exercise going well. Trying to take advantage of the sudden burst of energy while we still have it.

Current workout goals / Fitness goals:

• Consistently under 1300/day (average)
• Elliptical 45 min.
• Run 45 min.
• Bodypump twice a week with Elias

We are slowly raising our Elliptical 30 seconds a day. Will do C25K soon. And Bodypump on Wednesdays + Fridays.

Have to sign up again to Les Mills On Demand to get Bodypump, but. At least we already have the equipment and a built in partner.

Anyway! Until later