bout all we able to do lately is do school, work, diamond paint, and watch body cams. i dunno why the fuck we on such a binge for all of these. we are doin a diamond painting called Jellyfish Serenade by DAC1. sometimes playin video games too. but tryna focus on anything has been pretty hard.

we got back into therapy n everyone in the system just wants me to go. i ain’t really feel like going but i’m doin it cuz i feel like we need to. also workin on getting back into the psych. kinda just tryna put our life together piece by piece, after its been dropped the entirety of 2026 with regards to our mental health. i think we pushed too hard in 2025 with spravato/ketamine therapy n TMS basically full time n it made us burnt out on tryna do all the mental health stuff and then with after e’s cardiac arrest we kinda completely dropped everything i dunno it was just too hard to talk about.

honestly we still got a lot of OCD behaviors around that like for example if our animals are really still just putting our hand on them to make sure they’re breathing n all of that. we are tryna work on those in therapy we managed to get some of them fixed on our own but then also just strugglin in general with it.

plus with me personally having to be around more and more i’m just tired in general personally cuz i don’t want to deal with all this shit. i don’t know how singlets do this shit if i had to exist 24/7 in this damn body i’d probably want to shoot myself into the sun

  1. DAC keeps confusin me because there’s multiple things in my life that is named DAC at this point but this time it means Diamond Art Club ↩︎